Awakening of the mind as an obstacle in living awake

This is what I met with by working with awake people: The awakening of the mind becomes an obstacle in living awake. The opening of the mind's perception of who one is solidifies into the concept that stalls the creativity, curiosity, natural responses of the mind that is free of the solid identity. I used to think that people only on Facebook behave like awake robots, but in their life they are different, but now I see that its not the case, they are actually in life feel very restricted. It's like an opposite of freedom! The outer life circumstances only a sign of a restriction, and it can manifest in different ways, for example feeling dull, not motivated, not interesting to live, not interested in others, having a restriction in the partnership, sexual restriction, financial, feeling unfulfilled, but all this is not sort of a concern, because this is all human desires and interests, and "I am beyond it", "I am life itself" or pure awareness...I think you got my point here...Awakening to the Spirit to take over implies no limitation how the Spirit will live itself through the vessel. If you woke up in a dream at night lucid you do not sit in your dream in detached no-body, you go and explore the dream world, fly and do things you won't do before, just because you can! You know you are dreaming, you know there is nothing to be afraid of, so you explore fully. Same in life, if you woke up, stop pretending to be awake, BE free, FEEL alive, LIVE the fullness of life! 

P.S. Surely I myself went through a fairly long period of living detached, removed and all that, this is why I spot that crap very quickly, and there is no way you will make me believe "all is fine", and this is why I am here with the energy of provocation and the ability to make an impact necessary for you to snap the hell out of it, sometimes it is verbal coaching, and sometimes it is situational. And sometimes it is a life lesson for both of us 🥳🔥🌈💥

How awakening help in a human life?

So how awakening help in a human life? It simply allows you to be you. Allows you to be free from expectations of deeply conditioned mind around self-image and from expectations of others. It allows you to be correct in your own movement of energies, speech and actions. I have to say here that your correctness can look like incorrectness to others, especially in the transition period from been conditioned deeply to

be free.

The transition is not an easy time, and in my view and experience takes at least 7 years of core de-conditioning, and then natural fine-tuning, so no rush. Be kind to yourself. Be kind to those around who goes through epic shedding of skins.

I am here to serve and help in that process of shedding. I hide nothing, withdraw nothing, and will ask the best you are able to give to yourself at this time 

HOW TO BECOME FREE?

To become free is to become yourself. Not to become no self, but really to become yourself.

So denial of humanness won't really make you free, it will make you detached, but that detachment will be tested by life, because it is not natural state of being. Just like being attached to the humane and not seeing the divine is not natural state of being, same is with attachment to transcendent. Both are not sustainable if there is an honest exploration of yourself. You may start the exploration from any entry point, and though many disciplines provide that we usually choose them based on the inclination of the mind. What is that interesting for the mind to explore? Or we are called into the exploration by the heart.

Wherever you start, please do not stop half-way, continue. You will know when you arrive, when you feel at peace within yourself being yourself, and not for short period of time, but give it about 7 years. Let it all naturally re-arrange: your divinity, your humanness, the gifts you carry, the limitations, let it all float like a little glitter or snow particles in the viscous liquid in a plexiglass frame. They do fall on their own accord, there is no way you can hurry up their movement, you just need to turn the frame upside down and let the snow begin. Then you just watch the graceful slow movement.

And then you might turn the frame again...while you are here, why not to enjoy the mesmerizing falling of the snow...

Get Un-Stuck and Play your part!

It's mind boggling how people really do compare themselves to other people, teachers, colleagues, those who achieve something, spiritually or materially, and how this creates a havoc in the nervous system, and how if they only know their own unique offering to this world, their own role, their gifts and natural limitations, they would be so honored to be themselves, so happily playfully selfing! Otherwise we either unhappily unconsciously selfing or we try to hide into the absolutist view, half-baked-awake view of ourselves as "It's Life happening" or "I am Awareness", but we still unconsciously selfing, everyone around us see it, we are like an ostriches that hid the heads in a sand and think we are invisible!

What I mean by happily playfully selfing?

You know you are here not to pose as Consciousness or Awareness in this life, otherwise why would Consciousness even incarnate in you? Thats right, you are here to individuate. Yes, we are one, yes, its all Consciousness, One Mind, as Huang Po would say, many of us went through awakening to the essence of who they are. And what's now? To try to grip on the idea that you are Consciousness and avoid human dealings? You know this does not work. You know that life will bring it on to break that absolutist view that stuck in the mind as reality, and you would be forced to leave the "safe" Awake identity cushion, and finally face your humanity, the hard way!

Happily selfing is living clarity of who you are, without any escape tactics, without living unconsciously life that is guided by deepest unseen fears.

Happily selfing is knowing yourself, as transcendent and as humane, and having no resistance to play your part fully for what you were born.

You were not born to pretend to be not you, to pretend to be like someone else, even if it is the most awake guru on the planet, you were born to be you and offer the world your own unique gift.

Yes, most of us, we do not know who we are, and so we are seeking for this clarity all our life. We are not sure what we are here for, besides what we were told by others, or besides our own ideas, also conditioned in a social environment. To escape the suffering of not knowing why we are here, we seek transcendence with all might, and when we finally have this mind expanding experience, we just hold on to it as much as we can, becoming no-self stuck half-way on the mountain seeker that deny their humanness, deny their responsibilities of actions, later on deny seeking as something bad, and basically deny themselves.

I know I described a hard case here, but I met so many around facebook non-duality groups especially, I myself was hiding in absolutist mind state for some years, boy, I know what it is, and I surely recognize the trait from the first written sentence or in a meeting with someone. 

There is nothing to be ashamed also, if you are stuck. Stuck is stuck, and this is just a temporary mind state. And in the middle of stuck you actually don't even know that you are stuck, you only have the awareness of it when you have it, so there is nothing really bad about being stuck. But being stuck myself before I know I would benefit from some input on me being stuck, especially if that would be an experience for me to see it myself! Or I would benefit from someone guiding me in the un-stuck! That would be even better!! But I kept myself stuck with others who were stuck just like me, and many are still there. I am not. And I know how to shift things to un-stuck.

I know I wrote mouthful about being stuck, but its ok!

Anyways, If you are curious why you are here and what you are here to bring to the world, I do a special inquiry to guide people in a process of discovering yourself, discovering your own character in a movie called "Maya", and embody it with joy, instead of hiding behind the curtain, watching others being playful while you pretend you are all serious disembodied Awake!

https://www.elenanezhinsky.com/

Elena, this is Profound!

“Elena, this is Profound!!”
“Yes, it is!”

We both silent, startled, looking at each other, there is a deep pause...we feel her profoundness.

“Now you go live from this space, girl”

She glows as thousand stars. I tear up.

I am there with her. In her expansion. I am expanded too. It’s a space of all possibilities. It feels no less then profound.

I feel an honor to have an opportunity to make them lit up as thousand starts and be a witness to their profoundness.

I love to work with millennials. They are so precious, they evoke in me the most sympathetic joy I ever felt! 

If you have a child who is any of it: unsure, "lost", hiding, shy, unhappy, underachiever, resentful, righteous, having attention problems, commitment problems, any problems! in their 20th or early 30th, please send them to me. They are seekers in their own right, and I know how to work with them. I have very limited time for this as I am involved in building big project right now and trying to finish the book. The reason I am offering this because helping these precious souls makes a big impact on me. I feel called into this work right now, I feel they are who will carry us forward as a human tribe, and they need help now. I connect with them through having no solid identity and a lifetime of a great variety of "normal" and quirky human experience. They feel my transparency and acceptance of them, regardless where they are; they get validated in their uniqueness, they get empowered to Be, they re-connect to who they are in their own unique way. I can cry just writing this, because they deserve it and because they are much more ready to be who they are then any of the old crony like me.

I have to say to any of you who feel: "I had an awakening experience, but I still hide from living life fully", consider this work invitation too. Though I would take your millennials precious kids for a ride with me first 

Witness vs Awareness

For the advanced seeker.  Please do not take this name as an assault.  Lately everyone has an idea to end the spiritual search.  But it happens on it's own accord.  Nothing shameful in being a seeker,  the path is not one shot deal, like ego wants.  Sure, there are revelations on the way,  and then mind sneak into the next identification, and we need to honestly see that.  This small essay-exploration is a pointer to the next level of discernment that many are ready for.



Witness vs Awareness

Witness is not a natural state.
There is some effort, tension in the mind to maintain it.
Awareness requires no effort, its always there.
Mind can't register it.  Mind is not an instrument that is able to register and describe awareness, just like it is not possible for any system to know the system that includes it. 

When awareness aware of itself, mind is not there, how he can know of this natural state of existence?!
He doesn't.  But he will try to be a rightful owner of it!
As soon as it's abilities to conceptualise back after wordless experience of awareness, he will sell you the truth of experience that he has nothing to do with, mixed with concept, where he will hide himself as a member of the experience: 
"I had an experience. I am an awareness"  

If you hear this phrase in your head, beware, it's not the truth.
Awareness is an immediacy of being, where no words are possible to describe it, because the faculties to describe are not the part of the experience.

There might be a state of being where awareness aware of itself - a revelation experience of pure awareness, and a state of being where awareness is a phenomena itself.  It does not mean awareness if not present, it is focused into the different activity, it hides it's own face into the skin. Doesn't matter where it is focused: aware of itself or appear as phenomena, in that natural existence there is no tension.

In a contrary, witness is a state of mind with an effort to maintain, to hold the view, the distance.  It keeps duality, subtle and sneaky form of duality, quasi-non-duality.  Mind is maintaining the dream of being awake.  Question every idea about yourself that comes from the mind in a way of a description of who you are.  Who you are not a description, but a living experience.