I am not exaggerating,
its an addiction to a sensation, feeling.
The thought forms that evoke these mind states
are so readily available, as they are right there,
every moment, every morning we wake up,
mind already tuned in to a specific frequency,
and just like a radio, broadcast the thought forms
all day long, sending the body into specific feeling.
If we are really mindful, we will notice the correspondence
of the thoughts to the feelings and sensations,
and if we are deeply honest, we will ask ourselves:
"What benefit I derive from this particular mind state
of anxiety, sadness, anger, boredom...?"
"Why I am addicted to this particular substance,
what is there that keeps me hooked?"
I will give here a simple example, that many can easily understand.
It is 7am in the morning, and cold outside, in fact, its rainy too.
You are 6, and need to wake up to go to school.
You are so cozy under the blanket, dozing.
"Wake up!" you hear your mom's voice. And you slide
even deeper under the blanket, into the darkness and warmth.
"Wake up! We will be late for school!"
You feel even less motivated, you don't really like school.
"Mom, I am not feeling well"
After some examination mom either believes you or not,
but to convince her you really make yourself not feel well,
you even convince yourself in it: you feel achy, sad and weak.
But you allowed to stay under the blanket!!
40 years later you are still under the blanket,
literary, or figuratively.
The low and sad mind states now like an armor that is so familiar!
It keeps you "safe" from demands and expectations of the world.
Does it still work for you? Be honest.
I asked my partner what made him let go drug addiction,
while others went further, and many of them dead by this time.
"The state I was chasing wasn't working anymore,
so I was done with it".
Be honest and examine if it still works for you to be sad,
depressed, bored, angry - any of it,
examine if it still keep you protected in a way you needed
long time ago. Inquire if you need this protection now,
or you are ready to change.
Why you need sadness and anxiety, why you need depression,
what is behind it? Keep going deeper with your inquiry.
Be your own guide and counselor,
let simple open curiosity and innocence guide itself into clarity and freedom from addiction.
