Thursday, April 14, 2022

Fragmenting Population Goes Futher

Those who believed in mask vs no mask, the vac vs no vac, sex gender mix vs natural genders, black lives matter matter vs all lives matter, Republicans vs Democrats, and so on - there are many fractions by now, many more components that I mentioned here. For example: those who masked, but didn’t do vac, believe in all lives matter, and a Democrat - it's just one of the combinations.
Now I am facing my circle after all the combinations above settled down once again braking - those who “stand with Ukraine” vs those who are supporting denazification and demilitarization of Ukraine. Now, the newest component arrived: snake venom theory is true vs not true... the fragmentation goes deeper and the fragments of circles of likeminded people that remain are getting very small.
This is the main plan of a power elites right now on this planet - to break the families and communities - and it works like a Swiss clock. Please be aware of this.
What can be done? I don't know yet, but I see vac/no vac and mask/no mask people have less opposition by this time - this is good! Ukraine subject is too hot for the moment for many, but it might cool off at some point, when more people start to see that it's not Russia against Ukraine, but the same cronies by the same chess board, just a different game. If we as people stay true to our conviction, but open to new information, then there is a chance our conviction can shift in a future, and we can drop the resistance. We might drift away from some people completely, but if love remains in our hearts toward people with different convictions, this is wholesome place to be. ❤

Wednesday, March 9, 2022

Transmutating Pain

My homeland is Russia and Ukraine, I can’t separate them in me.
Yesterday in my bed falling asleep, I felt all the Pain.
I saw if you are not on one side or the other,
you have to be able to hold ALL the pain
arising out of this conflict.
This pain is not painful, it's detonates you.
It's a deepest Love and Compassion that ascends,
and you weep without tears.
Then you stare at the ceiling,
unable to change a thing.
We grew up on a land that remembers WW2,
we ate food grown on this blood rich soil.
We have this cellular memory of war,
when its activated, it is already a real experience,
wherever you are on this planet right now.
I am talking to you, Katzapi and Xoxli.
Yes, all the rage and terror is real,
but those who can transmute it in themselves -
this is the culmination of all your spiritual practices -
to be able to hold the deepest feeling
in the transparency of awareness,
and therefore experience compassion and love
to the degree when even this deep conflict
Love remains.
At least for a moment.
And you share that moment, that love, with the world
in a silence of your own being.
You dissolve in Love.
World needs this.
Every human heart experiencing Love counts ❤ 🙏

Friday, October 15, 2021

Indulging in security

Indulging in security is contrary to intimacy with God. It gives a temporary feeling of wellbeing, but puts happiness forever out of reach, for it destroys spiritual life and ruins the man who indulges in it by making him waste his time. And when he finally reluctantly comes back to himself, empty-handed, he realizes he never received anything. ~Ibn Arabi

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Tuesday, October 12, 2021

Let go

Surrender, let go of sight and reason
and walk the pathless path.
Stay in your own loss without wanting,
without knowing, without desiring anything.
Live like a child without a care in the world,
not even the care to do God's work.
~Madame Guyon: Christian and Spiritual Discourses Concerning Inner Life
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Wednesday, August 11, 2021

How to Let go of Fear of the Virus, and ANY kind of Fear

"If the fear exists, the virus is already in place.
I am not talking about creating a fear, but about consciously feeling what is already here. If you are afraid, the virus is already active. Instead of pretending it doesn't exist, realize that traces of it are always present in your life. Feel that which is here once and for all, instead of unconsciously LETTING IT LINGER IN ALL YOUR ACTIVITIES [...] It means feeling this fear of old age, disease, abandonment, FEELING IT IN THE BODY, no longer doing yoga to assuage the fear, or get married, divorced, have another child or buy a new car just to run away from discomfort - but on a contrary to consciously feel what is here."
~ Eric Baret, "Let the Moon be Free"

My own experience with fear and virus in 2020, a story:

Saturday, July 3, 2021

I really tried!

I tied to shake,

to yell,

to shock,

and to provoke,

to virtually slap,

to dance around 

stepping on the toes.

I really tried!

I cried,

I wept,

I didn't sleep,

I felt, and felt, and felt again

straight in the middle of my chest...

I really tried.

I talked to people in my brain,

I called them back into themselves,

I called them to listen not

to the TV - an idiot box

I really tried!

with love,


Friday, June 11, 2021

Deep Listening

What we are missing is real listening.

Not listening to verbal expression of others,

but listening to our feeling, feeble voice within,

slightest movement of energy.

Listening is an internal process,

deep listening is not done with the ears,

deep seeing is not done with the eyes,

and Knowing is not done with the intellect.

We have a part of humanity

that listens through the ears and eyes,

they call it listening to "science","news",data from CDC

and their own thoughts conditioned by this data.

And we have a part of humanity that gets information

by listening to nonverbal expression of the heart:

"This doesn't feel right".

These two parts of humanity

make different choices right now

that will affect their future,

our future,

the future of humanity.

Our future right now

depends on how many

will truly listen, listen to their own heart.


Friday, June 4, 2021

Most Common Fear

If I would isolate and name the most common fear we share is to appear socially INADEQUATE: just being unable to be and behave in a manner that is socially unacceptable and therefore, not approved, not liked, rejected, and disowned. This is deep tribal fear that we carry from the times when belonging to the tribe was the matter of life and death, it was almost impossible to survive alone.

We do everything to be adequate, everything - from small denials, to sucking up to those who control the community to which we belong. Having no strong principles, vague psychological boundaries from messed up family dynamics only helps to suck up and agree. For ordinary person it is easier to see through this thick, he just needs a crisis, life will re-arrange the brain naturally, and if he happens to meed a mentor at that time, he will start to come out from the delusions and prison of his own mind.
For "very spiritual", especially "awake", and especially if it happens to be "spiritual authorities" people it is monumentally hard and sometimes impossible to get out from the crystalized image of themselves as someone residing in higher consciousness. It's a threat to the whole lifestyle, their identity, their stand in comparison to other "ordinary" people, or "beginners" in spirituality. Do you see this horseshit is not real, its a pure mind creation to prop the image, to prop the "specialness", "not ordinariness". You give these people a real crisis like 2020, and where they are? In fear based living, first in line for experimental substances being shoot into their body, and condemning, disowning, rejecting from the communities those who actually were able to breath through fear, breath through mind's riddles, breath through mind's talks to itself, and stepped out of that all into the truth of their own, into sovereignty, the birthright of human being to think outside the social conditioning.
Most of the "ordinary" people are open now and looking for real spirituality, not concepts. Most of the "highly spiritual" have nothing, but concepts. Wonderful times for life to sort out who is who and where this who is going in 2,5,10 years.
May we all live the best of our lifetime, human life is so precious ❤