Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Julian beaming in Joy! Awakening in live meeting in Stuart, Florida

I met Julian in one of my live meetings in Stuart, Florida, USA. He attended 3 of my meetings... On the first one he was at the Gate, very inquiring mind, very sharp attention, beaming with insights..., on the second one he passed the Gate (he is writing about it in his last paragraph here). He brought his partner to the third one, and it was very touching and warm conversation and investigation with Joe, who saw the illusion of separation too...I am very happy for these two beautiful beings...Here is Julian's writings he sent me...

Elena Nezhinsky
Hey, dear Julian!
Please take your time and answer these questions. We could then add you to LU community, cool ppl!
1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works.

3) How does it feel to see this? describe in detail.

4) How would you describe it to somebody who has never heard about this illusion but is curious about it. 

5) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look? was there a specific moment when seeing happened or was it gradual? what exactly happened?

Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
The realization of the lack of me is pretty funny. Is the a “Me” at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? There is no me or I in any shape or form; only in the shape that is formed by my thoughts and those thoughts are forever changing and always have been. So when questioned about “Is there a “Me”, seems somewhat difficult to answer because it seems the “Me” has been so many different things at different times based on what my thoughts have associated in that moment. Once the mind is emptied and thoughts released, theres a sensation of freedom in the truth of mind being and that is me right now, just mind being or brain “Being” in this human experience. It’s funny to see that this has simply always been the case and that there was never the “Me” I believed and thought existed.

Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works.
The illusion of a Separate Self begins in Thought and expressed through belief and language. One of the discoveries that made it clear was seeing that everything is first Experience, and then secondly comes Thought or the separation which is the illusion. This may be known to many as The Ego, whose survival depends on the existence of the “Me”, the ‘I’, the “You”, the “Mine”. Complete separation begins in thinking that one has anything to do with who one really is and identifying as such. The truth is that you just are as life just is and life is happening all around us. It simply is not anything more than that and truly so much more simple than all the complex mumbo jumbo we all make it out to be. We are not separate, were are one; united in everything and we simply are beings living in a human experience possessed and attached to our thoughts. I want to LAUGH!

How does it feel to see this? describe in detail.
I’ve stated before that it feels extremely liberating and interesting at the same time because I can still see how attached or identified I still am with “Me” even though I know the bullshit I am thinking. However, I am grateful that I can see the identification. Observation of the self and my thoughts brings to me a feeling of relief and calm. I’ve been catching my feelings of frustration with other people or situations that arise and realize still how my thoughts take over through judgements and perceptions. It crazy; mad crazy to think I know everything when I does not exist but in thought and my thoughts are just that thoughts. Awareness of the sensations and feelings, and Acceptance of the truth, life just happening, flowing in whatever manner that may be. Everything is OK and can only be the way it is in every moment for it is what it is and is mean to flow just as it is flowing here and now. And Finally, Action, to let be, let go, and surrender knowing that everything is Perfect; to know this gives me an amazing feeling of relief and a sense of peace and calm. Life is happening as always there is nothing more to add!

How would you describe it to somebody who has never heard about this illusion but is curious about it.
I think I would first ask if they have ever been wrong about anything in there life? I there is a possibility that they are wrong about who they think they are? And then describe to them that the world and everything about the world, the people, places and things, etc. in it are what they are and the way they are because that is the way it has been created for a long time in their minds, but to not be fearful or worry because the truth is that it is all an ILLUSION. It really doesn’t include or have all of the varying degrees of separation, judgements, suffering, etc., and first and foremost that one needs to begin by fearless making an Inquiry about the Self, Who is I?; Who is Me?,Who is Who? To make and investigation into the thoughts and where they are coming from; To make an investigation about their feelings and sensations when they arise and inquire as to what they mean and why they are here and what their purpose here is for. This is not something we really do in life; for the most part we just continue in the vicious cycle of thought and more thought. Stop and begin the Inquiry and see what answer comes to you. Is everything the way your thought dictate to you or is there a possibility that it is all an ILLUSION?

What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look? was there a specific moment when seeing happened or was it gradual? what exactly happened?
Very funny question, because I remember it quite clearly. I was observing the inquiry of my friend who was investigating and inquiring "who, if it is not I, is choosing when going to the supermarket to chose what carton of Milk is purchased", in my observance I noticed and understod the frustration as the inquiry unfolded. It was gradual and as this was happening, I could see where she was coming from in her frustration and then all of a sudden I started to giggle inside.
What exactly happened was I saw how there is Walking into a Supermarket happening, Observation of items in the Supermarket happening, and finally Chosing happening. Like Yawning, Like Sneezing, Like Coughing....I say I do these things, but is this really true? No, just happens, like Life just happens and flows. This moment was Freeing and Uplifting to the spirit within me.
The realization of how attached to the Ego I am in thinking it is all about "me", "I", is quite amazing. This awareness and moment of inquiry and investigation is something to be practiced. And then comes the question the thought "Why havent I seen this before". It's Ok, It's perfect, because this 

is the time for it as everthing is Perfect.

Thank you, John Shirley, for your pictures!

Friday, January 11, 2013

Clear Seeing...

Every blog post I write is my own experience. It is not I am telling you what you should do or giving you my truth to accept. It is me talking to myself here, and if something corresponds to your experience, and you find it helpful, I am honored...

So today it's about clear seeing. I was inspired by Satipattana Sutta, one of the main discourses of Buddha and my own experience.

Clear Seeing...

Clear seeing is not trying to be in rest, when you are not.
Clear seeing is not trying to maintain a state of peace.
Clear seeing is seeing the reality as it is.
Clear seeing is seeing what is happening right now is what should be happening.

The problem is not what is happening, but the thought that it shouldn't be happening. The problem is wishing for something else to be happening. The problem is in arguing with reality.

Clear seeing is seeing that mind at this moment is full of thoughts.
Clear seeing is seeing that the body reacting with various sensations.
Clear seeing is seeing that there are feelings arising, because mind carries the thought at the moment that recognized by the mind as “negative” by previous experiences.

Clear seeing is seeing that this is what is happening, and accepting that this is the truth for you right now.
Fighting with reality on what is happening, because you have ideas how it should be happening, is not clear seeing, its confusion.
Even if confusion is happening, seeing that the mind is in confusion right now is clear seeing.

Clear seeing will do the job of purification of the remaining conditioning in the mind, gently ask “I” and “should” thoughts to rest...

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Being Human is Enough

There is a natural flow of falling deep into the illusion of separate self and awakening from this illusion in a recourse of the human life.  

Body is constantly in a changing mode. It happens by itself, this is the property of human organism, and any biological organism: to arise, to grow, to decline and die...While this movement is going, certain changes in the mind also appear naturally. At first child is born, and there is no identification with the body/mind, and with time it does appear in most of us. This is the natural movement of a human organism. And then the time comes when we start to question and inquire what we perceive.  This questioning in various degrees of urgency is also a natural movement of the human organism.

Madam de Salzmann, the pupil of Gurgieff said once that “It is important to live long”.  That was her pointing that awakening is embedded in the flow of human life itself. 

I am writing this to give you a sense of relief that there is nothing really to run for, looking at other people’s “attainments”.  This tension in feeling of you failing to reach some “level of awakening” will only keep you unhappy with the life 
that is perfectly unfolding as you are, 
this unique perfect embodiment.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

You say you want peace...

The storm, pouring water on the Earth suddenly became concerned that what it does, doesn't look like peace. It became sad and unhappy, because it wanted to be a slight rain, drizzle, not a full force storm...more then that, it wished so much to become sunshine, and not rain! 

You are going through difficult emotions, its a storm...Where is the peace in the middle of the storm? The peace is not in wishing for something else to happen, to be someone else you are not...the peace is in seeing that what is happening is the only what can be happening, like heavy rain, and not a drizzle at this moment...

The peace is in acceptance of what is, 
rain or shine.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Become busy being a human

I noticed how much some of us lost in trying to solve "Who 

am I?" riddle in the mind...

Koan can't be solved by thinking about it till the head

 hurts...koan is a riddle that is unsolvable by the mind, but 

can suddenly become alive in a being, opening the mind to 

perfect clarity...

Can you imagine a flower pondering “Who am I really?”

No, the flower being busy being a flower.  Opening, closing, turning to the sun, emanating fragrance...A dog, chasing a squirrel or laying lazy in the dust just being busy being a dog...

If you still think you are an object, a body, some structure separate from everything else, look deeper into the reality...

As the illusion of separate “I” is seeing, 
become busy being a human.

The need to define yourself as something will automatically drop, because all definitions are not true. The movement of life itself is the only what is and what is true.

Become busy being a human.

Life knows perfectly well how to move through awakened mind in the most efficient way,

so everything that needs to be purified, realized, seeing deeper, surely will, 
in its perfect   f  l  o  w...

I've been on the search for about 40 years. Everything has fallen into place since yesterday...

  • Robert M.:

    Dear Elena, I've been on the search for about 40 years. Recently I discovered non-duality and have been exploring that through the books of Greg Goode, Rupert Spira and Francis Lucille. My wife has started searching as well and came upon the LIberation Unleashed website yesterday. 

    We downloaded Gateless Gatecrashers, and I read several chapters today. The chapter with the dialog with Shane Wilson did it for me! It all came together for me. So now I'm just sitting with experiencing and living right now. No questions right now, but I may return. 

    What you are doing is quite remarkable, by stripping away everything but the inquiry of whether or not the "Me", the "I" is real. Everything has fallen into place. What I'm left with is present awareness, with no agenda, no trying to control, no trying to change things. 

    Many blessings, Robert

  •  Elena Nezhinsky 
    Are you outside of the experience "sitting with experience?"

  • Robert M 
    More like just experiencing. Magnificent world we're living in, isn't it?

  • Elena Nezhinsky 
    Robert, anything missing in this moment?

  • Robert M 
    Not a thing. Which is pretty remarkable in itself.

  • Elena Nezhinsky Would you mind if i post for you several questions you can ponder on and write?
    here they are...take your time, as much as you need, ponder, look, sit on it or just write spontaneously, ok? Thank you!

  • 1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

    2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works.

    3) How does it feel to see this? describe in detail.

    4) How would you describe it to somebody who has never heard about this illusion but is curious about it. 

    5) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look? was there a specific moment when seeing happened or was it gradual? what exactly happened?

  • Robert M 
    OK. You are amazing!

    1. Only thoughts about a me. Beliefs, identifications, obsessions, a seeming of a me, but no me. 

    2. An attachment to a point of view and being right about it. Making others wrong who don't conform to that point of view. Controlling, dominating, justifying, blaming. It starts with a thought I believe. There is attachment, grasping. It runs on automatic and can be triggered by any thought or perception or sensation. 

    3. I've been seeing this for quite awhile now. To me, to know this but not know how to be free of it has been very frustrating. Every technique I've used to see this and get past this has perhaps helped some, but not lead to liberation. Lots of confusion. Trying to improve the I, trying to better, more successful. Lots of striving. Some understanding but then more confusion. 

    4. Do you ever feel like you're living a "substitute existence?" You seem to have a life but it is flat, it's full of struggle and disappointments. Did you ever wonder why this was so, why there wasn't more juice in life, more love, happiness, and fulfillment even though you have all the symbols of success? Have you ever thought what might be missing even though you think you have everything? 

    5. The direct seeing that there was no I or me that exists and your emphasis about that was the key. I was reading the inquiry with Shane, and I wrote down the questions and did my best to answer them honestly. And I just got it. How can I add anything to this self, this false self because it doesn't even exist? What a wast of effort to try to change it. So it happened in an instant, but you might say it happened gradually because for the past few months, I've bee reading Spira and Goode and Lucille and getting a god conceptual grasp of all of this. Then it was as if I got the punchline. 

    I'm on vacation right now in Mazatlan Mexico, so we just went out and it felt pretty amazing all day, but not because it's "Sunny Mexico." 
    Many thanks, Robert 

  • Elena Nezhinsky (very happy):  Many blessings to you, my friend!

Short video on YouTube about Gateless Gatecrashers book...