Wednesday, September 9, 2020

Personal TV Saga

I think what helped me in life is that in most of my life I didn't watch TV. We had no TV when I was a child, I don't remember watching it at all, my family was poor, I was born on a unpaved street on the outskirts of a very small town in Ukraine. When me and Anthony were in Budapest, I noticed very similar air, just like in Ukraine, so I looked on the map how far it is from the town I was born, and was surprised that it was not that far, you can drive by car in one day. When I was looking at the map, I did the google zoom into the street and actually found the very house I was born in, I couldn't believe it had the same window shutters and still the same unpaved road!
At about 11 we went to live in East Germany where my parents got TV left from the previously stationed military family in the house, but the programs were in Germain, I did not understand and did not watch it, mostly spent my time in school and with my friends outside.
At 16 we came back to Russia and had to live 2 years in a military dormitories where families had a room to live in and a dormitory kitchen and a common room for everyone. After dinner people would gather around one TV in a common room and watch a movie. I couldn't stand to sit in a packed, hot room smelled with dirty socks of Russian Army officers, so I again, spent my time either with friends or reading.
By 18 my parents finally got their own apartment and eventually bought a TV. By that time I was more interested in guys, dating, and teen groups to hang out, not to sit with my parents and listen their commentaries about events on news. But I would watch sometimes soccer, iceskating main championships, music, fairytales, animal and travel around the world programs.
At 22 I immigrated to USA, didn't speak English to watch TV for long time, immersed myself in caring for my newborn baby, study and into reading because I could use electronic translator with books.
In my 30th we got TV, mostly to watch DVDs through VCR, since I don't remember watching anything else, except couple of seasons of American Idol, Batchelor and Apprentice, have to say it was super interesting 🙂 And that was probably my biggest exposure to the television.
World-wide news came into my life fairly recently, after 40, through computer. But I never developed the need for news or any other programs on TV, and I am so happy about it.
Yesterday we watched the movie "Plandemic". It made a big impression on me mostly just uncovering how deep the conditioning through mass media and Google goes, how it is used as a sophisticated filter for information. When I say to people that I do not really read articles, watch news, not interested in numbers from government agencies, I am not kidding, I don't. I have very short attention span for this type of reading or videos, very rarely when I read something to the end or watch, like yesterday with this video Plandemic. And even it was interesting, I drifted in the middle of it. In all the honestly, my mind doesn't need something in it's entirety, it picks up what it needs very quickly and that's enough information, and I trust this feature.
If you familiar with Human Design, I was surprised to discover that I don't have any 1st lines in my design (I-ching energy lines describing the propensities of the mind). 1st line is about investigation, digging into available information, starting from basics, study from the beginning. Some have this energy very strongly in them, some less stronger, and it will be right for people to dig into information before making conclusions, but I have none of 1st lines. I don't need to study anything starting from basics, I can grasp the essence from any entry point. This was such a revelation for me some years ago, almost a relief of what I already knew and intuitively lived, but always felt inferior to those learned individuals who operate with data and know facts. Especially in Russia we overemphasized higher education and those with degrees wold definitely look down to those without, so most of us got degrees in doesn't matter what, just not to be left behind as stupid. Mine was Metallurgical Engineering, believe it or not!
So why I am so strong on my page about masks and other BS I see? Not because I follow news, numbers, hundreds of articles and videos, no, I have no interest, energy and focus for that. I say what I see and feel in myself, it is very raw and very innocent, and when people come back and say "You don't read information, it is a slippery slope" or "Aha, you don't read, then you can't know what is true" - these are written by people who have no idea how my mind operates, and they see it from their own perspective, having probably highly intellectual, analytical propensities of the mind to get information from the linguistic sources.
I live, observe, feel. Sometimes I do get visions, but I don't trust those, since they can be as conditioned as anything else. Sometimes I read and watch, but this is not my main source of information.
So anyways, I just wanted to say, if you want me to present you facts that prove your facts wrong, this is not my thing. Even if I post some facts sometimes, its mostly for people who need to read or watch to know. Please understand if you want me to debate anything, I am unable. Then you can conclude something like someone very popular in a spiritual scene did: "Aha, if you don't read and watch then you can't know what is true". Do whatever you want, but for me this would point that we are not on the same fractal, you don't need my insight, you will never take from me because your mind need factual information that I don't have, and therefore it is more kinder for us to part.
Have a greatest day today!
Love, Elena

Friday, September 4, 2020

Keep walking!

Anyone who suffered through life the restriction of their own sovereignty, or restriction of speech, or were not able to stand in their own center, their own authority, please know that you might bounce to another extreme at some point by momentum in the movement from being conformed ~~~~~> to being free. Don't apologize for yourself being too rigid to stand your ground, don't feel ashamed for looking a bit crazy, don't feel scared by your own strong convictions, your suddenly more deeper and powerful voice, more open throat, and more confident actions. This is very natural process, and in your case it is very rightful process of coming back to yourself, it is a life-giving movement of energies in you. 🌈

If someone who was more into themselves all their life and stood strong on their own does not recognize this life-giving process in you and start to shame you or even start to suggest you scale down your voice, speech, and actions, understand that they might feel threatened of loosing control, or they just don't know you, where you are coming from, or they really wish you well and trying to help, they can come from all kinds of places, but only you know what is life-giving for you, even if this looks too much for anyone else outside. 🌈

I use word life-giving because I feel this is the right word to describe the movement to freedom in you. It is very individual and no one outside can know what it should look and feel like, only you, so you get sensitive to that space in you that feels this, get attuned to freedom vs conforming, how it feels, how it affects your psychology, your energy, your spirit, health and so on...You become your own GPS system to navigate this very individual process. I support this in people, just like I support this in myself, it is a tight rope to walk, as anything else in authenticity in the dense social environment, but its a walk to become free <3

Keep your focus, keep to yourself, and keep walking. 😎🙏

Tuesday, September 1, 2020

What is necessary is conscience

 I know I have been radical with my expression on Facebook and the more time goes by the more I say as is, no pussyfoot around (I got this from my partner :) )

It's too many of us in the spiritual, especially nondual circles that are in denial, clicked into a sheep mode, bamboozled, just like anyone else out there on the streets. You thought you are something special? Nope, the life right now shows very clearly that you just like your next door neighbor who will never know what satsang is. He actually has more chances to survive whats coming, he at least can dig, build, and grow stuff, you spent your years sitting around the stage listening to talks.

I did not know the extent of this bamboozling until probably now. I thought I was talking here to minds that can crack open, can discern, to beings that can stand in autonomy of their own being, but probably most just can't. The neurological groves are set too deep for the neurons not to follow the set direction. These are the times of sorting out of whos mind and nervous system can change and not be enslave by social conditioning of submission, who can walk out from the old paradigm being oblivious and live by default into being fully human who is able to stand in the midth of the storm, see, feel and make their own decisions.

I was a witness of abuse yesterday when a young mother came out with her very little daughter, probably 8y.o, out of the store and the girl pull off her little mask, looking so sweet, like a true little California born angel with blue eyes and white wavy hair. "Pull your mask on", yelled the mother right besides me, she was so laud it hit me right in my heart. I stood there watching how they crossed the street and went into their car and took off. In the masks. I cried today into my partner chest, as I woke up and recalled this. It is not easy for me to see these things. And when people come here and say; there are much more serious atrocities then just wearing a mask, you don't understand that the mask its just a metaphor right now for submission, and it includes for me all the atrocities happening with humans who are naive, asleep, and enslaved by social conditioning. And why would I care so much that I put myself like that here so I alienated so many, even some of my friends?

Why we care? Because our conscience don't let us not to. G.I.Gurdjieff said something that penetrated me long time ago:

"People are very fond of talking about morality. But morality is merely self-suggestion. What is necessary is conscience."


“You must learn not what people round you consider good or bad, but to act in life as your conscience bids you. An untrammeled conscience will always know more than all the books and teachers put together.”

And yet, the bamboozling is so strong that conscience in a modern 'spiritual' man is almost nonexistent. Gurdjieff did talk about it that it is a great gift if a modern man was able to safeguard his conscience through the years of being conditioned to be a sheep of the society. I did not see it so clearly as through the times of this plandemic.

People think I am this hard-core woman that can jump on the horse and charge into the battlefield. I am not really made up for the battlefield, I have very strong feminine qualities, developing masculine qualities as I go by exercising courage to speek my truth and be myself in the middle of the world going in the opposite direction. I have a few people who support this here and on my Youtube channel. I very much appreciate you, guys <3

And if you are bamboozled: look up the latest CDC report that they released very quietly, maybe this will help, I start to doubt that I can be in any way helpful for you.

Sending much love to all, bamboozled and free.

Saturday, August 29, 2020

How many of us fell into this trap?

Paraphrased from the book: sister is a nun, she follows and supports Dalai Lama. It doesn't mean she is poor, she invested in gold, real-estate and other assets to support her mission. (by Robert Kiyosaki)

These kind of revelations not new to me anymore, but still I am shocked to know more and more that there are smart people in spirituality that did not go broke to follow their path, while so many did, trading their financial success for spiritual journey as it is two negating each other paths. How many of us fell into this trap? A lot. So I don't want anyone be blind anymore about it. All your big spiritual teachers are not poor, they actually created business models for themselves that work. They have high paid personal and business coaches, and you choose not to see that, giving your last money to be close to them and listen to their advice because you are still in that mode where you need an authority to guide you, mommy to hold your hand, or dad to scold you, or whatever the trip of your conditioned mind is. This is why I recorded on my Youtube channel ~50 videos in a month of June, pointing relentlessly to the conditioning that can be present in the minds of awake to various degrees seekers. Because I do care about my fellow companions on a path, and you might choose to benefit from it, or judge me, whatever floats your boat 🙏 ❤

Sunday, August 23, 2020

We stroll together

If you are unaware of child trafficking and how politicians are controlled by pedophilia, but successfully diverting your attention by instilling various fears and social memes to affect your mind, you don't have to look up, but you might throw up sometimes later when your senator or state official gives details in court how he engaged in these acts with little kids, without even his wife being aware of it. Of cause we all were unaware, thats fine to be unaware when the information is suppressed, how would we know about these things? We are not responsible when we don't know, but still it doesn't mean it's not affecting us, look where we are right now with our social environment. Yes, we are not responsible, but we were rolling by default into this. Whoever takes orders from officials right now without second thought is not responsible, they are oblivious and in complete denial, but it doesn't mean they won't end up in totalitarian society just like anyone else who is aware and does something to prevent this. It will be much more shocking for unaware to discover these things later on, the shock can be various in effect too, so we will see how it goes. Sometimes generation die out in denial, the level of denial is thick and spread through generations very deep. So we'll see how it goes.

Since I write mostly for people in spiritual circles, who ask me how to behold what's going on on a human level and the ultimate freedom human being able to tap into, how to marry these two without going kookoo or abandoning the intent for ultimate goal of enlightenment? I would say, start from finding your own autonomy as a human being, find your center of gravity here, feel your heart, see yourself as unique individual that is valid in all the regards like anyone else, equally equipped to play this human game, otherwise you won't be here. Can you see the significance of this firm life-giving understanding, how precious and capable you are? Everything else, all other inquiries and findings has to come from this very firm place in yourself, then you won't be swayed by anyone else's ideas of you and will be not submissive and conforming so much that your eyes, mind and heart would be shut.

Finding freedom is not intellectual endeavor, though it can start with mind opening to the bigger perspective, it has to land into the whole being, trickle down to the cells, transforming one on all levels of being. When you transformed on a deepest level you can behold any of the human happenings and you can serve as a troubadour, a guide, a leader to others, so take your time and do the inner work first before you jump to help others, otherwise you will be troubadour right out of your own conditioning.

While you are working on your own heart and mind, look around who resonates, and become their companions, not followers, but walk with them until you don't resonate, no attachment, just pure walk through life as friends through the park. I have a few companions, we stroll through these life's visisitudes, supporting each other just being near by and keeping the smile while we are strolling through knowing more and more about this very environment we live in these bodies. We learn about corruption, greed, destructions, deception, lies, we understand that this is what's happening and some of us choose to talk about it, and some of us choose to help in a different way. This is not the mind that chooses, we came here with a specific intent which is unfolding as our life here right now, and we just take the mind out of the way of that intent. Look for who likes my posts through thin and thick and you will know who stroll with me. Not many, but its enough, and we smile to each other through the globe  

Friday, August 7, 2020

Touching and Connecting

 We made this video to connect people around the World

 in Joyful, Life Affirming Project during difficult times.

It touches my heart ❤️ to see your faces

in so many countries around the world!! 

I am grateful 


Watch this video on Youtube:

Saturday, July 18, 2020

A letter to my people

Editing to "5 min or less" video that didn't save 3 times :)

I am looking into how to wrap up my video project that I did unceasingly for the last 45 days or so, it feels much longer, it took all my attention. Sometimes it was bliss and sometimes it was very trying, especially editing various videos to a 5 min or less format that came suddenly to me in a vision 🦉
I could spend 2 hours to cut out and edit a piece of a video from a longer video and then Youtube would not process it correctly, and the changes would be gone. It happened to me on one particular little video 3 times, you can calculate how much effort was in that trying. The last time it was yesterday, and I just deleted the whole thing and did the other piece that came out today "Living in a Head?". Sometimes you submit to the forces beyond your comprehension, for whatever reason that stubborn piece didn't want to be and escaped every time I tried. 🤡
I have a lot of patience with some things, and no patience at all with other things. I went to bed yesterday feeling in awe how these types of things when you work for 2 hours your efforts disappear because of the technology, three times, doesn't evoke any emotion, and other things like seeing yesterday on a beach a young mom in a mask with her little child on her lap looking at her, trigger emotion. What I see is deeper things and I can't help myself to bump into a thick wall of old crusty collective conditioning. 🤖
I am adjusting to live in the world when the world gone mad and its also visual, didn't I live in USSR with Lenin on every forehead and repeating the same slogan to keep reinforcing what was imposed on supposed to be free man? "Save Lives" and other slogans that are introduced right now remind me my old life, and how easily and wholeheartedly a human mind believe and follow. I don't even want to think about what's coming. 👀
I know I was born for these kind of times when I keep living freedom I found and express it to others, without any agenda, just expression of my own freedom, my experience as a human, and anyone who resonate welcome to read or listen, for whatever reason you need it. Just please help me sometimes and share it with someone else if you find it helpful, like it if you find it worthy to watch, share it if it touched you. In the universe of technology we depend on algorithms, if no one click that thumb up, you get invisible to people, simple and complex matter at the same time. 😶
So coming back to my video project. I am going to wrap it up, but not sure yet how, I am like a paraglider that catches the wind to go into certain direction, I am gliding still waiting for a breeze to take me in. I hope to make a video every week and continue to put out " in 5 min or less" project out, but need to expand my attention on other things in my life that are waiting.💼
I very much, very much appreciate anyone who is on a ride with me, who help by commenting and liking, sharing these videos for others to be visible in a sea of information. I appreciate you guys who wrote to me personally with your experiences, who felt me close to you when watching, who felt connected, who expanded their mind and heart along with me 😘 🙏 

Intellectual Spiritual Seeker Scenario

Wednesday, June 3, 2020


From my Facebook page.  Applies here as well.

The question to myself I face lately how to navigate this time being myself, very specific individual mind which is not here to listen and be conditioned by the rest of the world. How to remain being able to say what I am here to say, not post memes from others, re-post others posts, provide data, sources of information and so on - I am not here for that, this is prerogative of collective mind. Individual mind here to express not necessarily in line with collective, often it is provocation out of collective conditioning.
I have no collective or tribal wiring, more then that, the ONLY consistent wiring I've got in my human design chart called "Genius to Freak" (I know for some of you it will be a relief to hear!) Here how it actually works: If you resonate with what is said, you might see a genius in me, if you don't , then surely you will see me as a freak. So this is how we sort out each other here: if you see a freak in me, then I either was incorrect within myself and said something in a WRONG TIMING, or you are not correct for me as a recipient, let's say, we are INCORRECT for each other and we better to part. I am surely here to speak in my community, among people who know me well, who know I am not speaking from malicious intent, who know I speak from great passion for people to wake up, from compassion, and my expression is nothing more then an attempt to shake people up, to create a bit of cognitive dissonance to open up to a new way of seeing.
If you don't see that, please just leave, we are too far from each other in a fractal of things, not on the same page as we say it more simply, I am not here for you and you are not here to receive anything from me. We have nothing to do with each other, like a rainforest in Amazon and the icecaps in Arctic. They both have a right to exist and have a specific life intent, and let's just leave it at that for us both.
I am here to produce original thought, from my own being in it's entirety: from my own reasoning, from my own feeling, from the vastness of life experience, the deep compassion to humanity, love for my own unique expression, and love for freedom. When I write these things on my page I have an intent through ALL my posts and this intent is for those who connect with WHAT and HOW I write, and the FEELING in between, this intent is to open the mind to see anew. I don't want you to agree with me, I want your mind for a second have a little opening to a different possibility, that's all. Thats all I aim with my every post, be that I am talking about how my mind operates, or I am talking about uniqueness of all of us, or I am provoking in a way that is borderline on a social norm, or anything I post.
I don't use this page to share my personal life, I use this page to impact, inspire, touch and transmit this very intent. If you feel offended or you feel I am a freak, that's a good indication you and me are not connecting beyond the words you see on a page, and it's better not to be together. You simply leave. But if you feel like I have at least something intriguing for you and it keeps you here to read some of it, and you are constantly confused by the variety of the messages and you don't know how to react, but you keep reading, instead of calling me names (which I delete, I am not a masochist to keep it on my page), to know me better you might read my book Buddha on a Bull, watch my videos, especially the series I am recording right now "Complete Humanity", you might connect with me there, and maybe discover something new in yourself as well.

Saturday, May 30, 2020

Authentic Face

By some messages I read I see that some people are lost in their set character and have no idea they are. They hear me talking about myself with awareness of the conditioned character and it's roles, and they assume it has nothing to do with them, they think their existence as a character they know with all the supporting neurological responses, physiology, habits of the mind, set ways in life, familiar ways they hold themselves, gestures, postures, aspirations, ideas and's them. They have no idea that what responds to life is not them, but conditioned mind. Doesn't matter really even if you are awake to some degree to bigger perspective, even worse, then you are really fucked. Until all that persona that you hold start to crumble and you allow it to die, to dissolve, you will never see your authentic face. You might think you know your authentic face, but thats another layer of denial. Don't think you can oversmart life, if you really honest with yourself, you will be able to give yourself to life fully. It is different in everyone's case, but it requires to scarifies everything you know about yourself and allow yourself be pushed, challenged, break, and loved by life itself  🙏

Wednesday, May 20, 2020

Don't loose your essential human freedoms to fear

I watched yesterday Trump telling journalists that he is taking chloroquine and zinc. Not that I love Trump, please do not miss-interpret me like in other of my posts, read this without judgment, it will help you to understand that covid is not a deadly virus and you can prepare yourself and if needed take something that helps.
I describe in my writing before that I too took not chloroquine, but tonic water contained quinine (for those who can't get chloroquine, it works as well!) + Zinc. Trump taking it preventative, I took it for acute illness. What was it I don't know, you know covid tests are not available for general population, but I did have some symptoms described in the media, like burning in the chest and throat and my article about it on my blog Complete Humanity.
Don't fear death when it's 99+% about recovery, often quick like in my case, often without any symptoms. Don't make a righteous stand that we all have to follow the fear-based living because of your fear. Please do not slander me just because I stand for my right to live essential human freedoms of choosing how I live my life in already very tight parameters set by whoever structure the ways of living on this plane. Please, before you call me selfish for not following what you want me to follow, just for a second assume that maybe if I would be selfish I would sit quietly at home eating my grass-fed butter that I stock up on and watching from afar how easily human beings follow strange orders from the authorities, disregarding their own critical thinking, the science, the numbers, the doctors - virologies, epidemiologists, triple board certified, and listen to a random software guy who invest in Monsanto, and then wait for his vaccine to be ok to go outside and hug another human being. That would be super selfish, I agree.


Here is my post where I described Quinine-Zinc protocol I used:

Tuesday, May 12, 2020

I hope more people wake up from a deep sleep

I hope more people wake up from a deep sleep.
All the chaos that is happening helps to shake people from the familiar place. Things are organized on this plane to keep us in the dark, sort of keep us in "our place". It's hard for people to understand that they have a certain place and it's on the bottom of the social pyramid, it's especially hard to see it here in America where people thought they live in democracy and they matter. It is also hard to see it for spiritual seekers who believe "we all one" denial concept taken out of the context of the actual transmutative experience.

It was very hard for me to see the real organization on this planet, because I am naturally positively inclined, I see goodness first. To see what's going on was very painful, it took years until I was able to digest this and accept that this is the life I was born to live, this is exactly the environment for life in this form to fulfill it's intent. It started with Gurgieff 's book "Belzebab Tales to his Grandson", I remember the feeling of deep grief it evoked as I was reading how Belzebab described humans and how life organized on Earth. It was 1999 or so. It's 2020 now. This is how long it took me to be able to look without turning away.

So I understand that people turn away from some things, it's just too scary, too crazy, too out there, it's conspiracy. These disillusionments are painful, every level of illusion, doesn’t matter what part of it, was painful to see. I am a bit more prepared psychologically to face these monumental changes on Earth that started to be visible. They will continue to shock the world going forward for the next cycle, until it’s complete. It will be completely different world. It’s a bit unsettling sometimes, but mostly thrilling to live at these times ! I still can't believe we are actually living it. It is absolutely mind-blowing to be able to be alive now and witness the change of epoch.

We all need to wake up to spaces in us that are dormant, they are different for different people, can be on a very fine level, existential, or very much mundane, like how this society is organized, and what our place in it, where is the real power, who controls how we live. I am here basically just to talk about my own experience, in all kind of different ways, so hang with me, maybe something will be helpful one day or another. From the whole array of what I read and saw in the last couple of months of "pandemic" one doctor really stood out for me. He was talking in a way I see humanity, diversity, variety, life, Nature. He was talking about beauty of everything, the viruses included.
Here is the link to the interview of this doc. His name is Dr. Zach Bush, M.D., and watch his other videos, they are very very potent, not only to make sense of this "pandemic", but expand the mind to the systemic view of life. Though every system still limited, but his systemic view is much more higher order then completely linear view of fear-based "Stay at home and wear mask" sort of thing. Dr. Zach Bush on Covid 19 and more

And of cause, watch George Carlin, he still lives in his brilliant monologues that can reveal a lot if you are willing to hear.


Saturday, May 9, 2020

Do Your Works

I was asked by one block today how I enjoy the present moment when I express strong feelings. Oh yes, I feel. I have feelings. Do you? Are you feeling flat and disengaged and you call that balance? I have feelings of care, concern for human beings. I feel humanity's feelings, sometimes it is overwhelming, and I cry, I let the river of compassion wash out my being. I am not ashamed by my deep feelings, not in denial, I am a human, a woman, a mother, a role model for some.
This is not a matter of artificial enjoyment out of denial of your feelings. This is a matter of living yourself fully. This brings real enjoyment of every moment I breath and live who I am. When I express what I want to express, without holding, without fear, without denial, I am living whom I came here to live, and truth of my being expressed is absolute joy to participate in. What can be more fulfilling then expressing who I am, without fear? Each moment is complete. I live in childlike curiosity for life and eager to play every moment, ask my partner.
Wake up to who you are, not transcend and escape who you are, and you will enjoy the present moment truly. You will enjoy being human, seeing and feeling and being exactly what you are here for. I have seen enough spiritualized defensive spiritual seekers who are compensating their disembodiment protective mechanisms developed early on in life, unable to see the fullness of humanness. I was one of them, so I can talk about it in details that only possible for me because I did the works. Do your works, people.

Saturday, April 25, 2020

Snap out of fear, folks!

I am not even sure where to start, but I will, otherwise I never write it down which happens very very often, much more often then someone who call themselves a writer can afford.  This post will be a mixed bag of what was going on in my world in the last couple of days and this post might not be well-structured, forgive me for this, I really don't want to write, but feel this might help some people, so it will do it.
About half way I am describing my experience with Zinc+Quinine protocol. For anyone interested in emergency treatment for virus I tried on myself... but first...
This corona scare city got to the peek recently among the people, and I had to post a few posts on social media that evoke a lot of feelings in people. I am known in the ability to evoke feelings, this is the aim of my writings, so I am glad it worked. I have this provocative energy in me that get's unleashed when I write, I am here to touch some hidden fears, challenge some old beliefs. Of cause it includes myself as well, I had to live through a half a century of experiences to get clear in myself in order to be able to write in a way that is effective for transformation.

Real tangible transformation doesn't come with neutrality and trying to please the crowd.  It comes through evoking some cognitive dissonance, the disillusionment in one or another lie we hold dear to ourselves, and confronting lies is nothing less then a courageous act.  It might be easy for some, I don't know, this is not my case here. So we are very much connected in the field through this possibility of transformation, it does include me in it. 

Recently I had a lot of support, but also a lot of resistance in the field. Oh, I am so happy my writings stoke a fear cord in many people, hey, I have done my work perfectly then, because hiding and escape doesn't really do much in evolvement of the spirit, and these days it's essential to start to look into hidden places of fear, how else you can go forward in life when the whole world as we know it is going kaput?! 

No, it will not going to be like it was before. If you still hope that things will come back to "normal" after a while, no, the changes on the planet Earth in a way our life is structured and run will never be the same. There are going to be humongous changes, and its just a start.  So brace yourself, and instead of running from being challenged in some of the beliefs that will not serve you to go forward in these chaotic times, 
open yourself to new ways of seeing and experiencing.  These are the times of restructuring the entire financial system of the world (yes, it is one of the main reason everything is in a chaos right now).  For those who are re-structuring the ways we live this is not a chaos, there is a particular plan, but as George Carlin said: "There is a club, and me and you are not in it": George Carlin "The big club" video on YouTube.

It doesn't mean that this recent virus is not real, sure it is, like other viruses and flus, and germs, and bacterias, but the real reasons for entire world lock-down is to use it as a smoke screen to divert people's entire focus on danger of the virus and evoke fear. Basically steal people's attention while starting re-structuring the world financial system and the entire human society.  I understand that most people are unable to see it, the fear of getting the virus and dying is taking their entire focus in life right now. And surely I hit resistance on social media with my provocative messages like this one:

"This starts to remind me living with KGB in Russia, and right now while this coverup going on mind programming is not even that sophisticated, you can see it if you want! At least we were born into that society and were indoctrinated to be afraid to speak up since childhood. What is happening to you people who were brought up with a freedom of speech, why the fk you are silent? Still meditating? Good Luck."

But let's get to the heart of this post, something I wanted to share, in case you will need it.  I am not a medical professional and this is not a medical advice, but description of my own experience.  

I will tell you guys how I went recently through some of corona adventure. I am not sure if this was a virus, or it was some woo-woo from the field of resistance from social media (you know how this works in mysterious ways), but I actually got sick for couple of days. This is why I took a break to take care of myself and signed off from FB.

I suddenly developed symptoms people describe in the early stages of the virus: pains in the body, headache, burning in my throat and a chest. This could be anything, but at these times everyone who gets any symptoms of any illness, automatically think it's covid19, and since testing is not available, I decided to treat it as a virus. 

As per my own article:  
Cervesa Virus and How I boost immunity which I posted in the beginning of this pandemic, I immediately took high dose Vitamin C (8 grams with some short intervals) and I used nano silver to swish in my throat.  It did not help this time, the next day I woke up really sick.  I had in mind couple of protocols in case I will get hit by covid19, one of them was homeopatics, and I was prepared.  I bought a set of homeopathy for this very case to treat, but unfortunately I did not read the instructions beforehand, and as I tried to print it out and read it, I was seizing up. I realized I have to just go for the Quinine+Zinc protocol I described in my article, though taking high dose of 100mil of zinc with Quinine was a bit scary.  Not for a reason! 

I don't know if my organism reacted to it in an intense way, or this is a general reaction to this protocol, but after I took Quinine tonic water with 100mil of zinc in a very short time it started to remind me a beginning of Ayahuaska journeying: intense nausea and my mind went in sort of mild delirium state.  I wanted to throw up, but I kept telling myself to hold it (anyone who have done Aya knows its good to hold until you can't anymore :) ) "Just hold it, Elena, as much as you can.  Relax, lay down, and let it kill the fucker ", were general instructions to myself.

So I did. I went outside and laid down on a grass on my backyard and immediately drifted into delirium completely.  I laid for sometime, tripping, at some point I fell asleep. I want to tell you that I did not have any troubles of breathing, but I had intense burning in my throat and the second day I felt it went into my chest. I had body pains just like you have it with any flu, tension headache, maybe a fewer, but I did not measured it. After I woke up there was absolutely no symptoms, zero.  First what I noticed is the burning in my throat and a chest was completely gone, no pains in my bones, no tension headache, I was clear of all of it, at once, completely, like we say in Russia: "like the cow licked it off".

Truly I was amazed, because it did match completely the data from LA emergency rooms where patients with covid19 were treated with chloroquine (contain Quinine) and Zinc and were released in a matter of 1-2 days. Some info about it:

Where I got my dosage for Quinine Zinc protocol

Chloroquine, Zinc Trials
LA hospitals and chloroquine

I did not use 
chloroquine, I used Quinine rich Tonic water and ionic Zinc I bought on Amazon, the link to both is here:How I boost Immunity 
Also you might ask me what the title of this post was about?  I actually borrowed my partner's words from his post recently:

Please watch the REAL numbers in California!! California doctors investigating what is really going on in our state with covid19. Something is drastically wrong with how this situation is handled. Snap hell out of fear folks! Let's get real and support our community by sharing this kind of information, not disinformation brought to us by mainstream media and our own fears!" Here is the link to the video: Covid19 Briefing in California

video by one of my favorite docs on the net Dr. Berg: 

COVID-19: Is It as Deadly as They Say?

Dr.Shiva Ayyadurai exposing big pharmas, hospitals and vaccines:

On the end note I want to leave you again with George Carlin's brilliant speech on viruses and all kinds of germs:
This video on Youtube:
George Carlin on fear of germs and viruses 

Some of my recent posts on Fear:

We were born for these times!
Fear of survival: personal experience
If you are a Leader, do not loose the vision
Free yourself from Fear