🔥The PORTAL. Part 9🔥 For Advanced Souls

What does it mean to wake up, to become awake?  We need to get this clear, otherwise what the difference would be of this text with any other call to wake up!  Just please get into your most focused state possible with this text, I will try to unpack it from different angles.  If you are not focused enough, don’t even start.  If you have unfinished business, finish it first.  This will be the longest text so far, the longest Part of “The Portal”. You will need all the energy to go through this text.  And more than that, you will need free energy, awareness, to comprehend this text.  If you in that category of people who have access to awareness, focus, and you are bold, start. 

To wake up is to become conscious, to wake up from the dream of the character you are in this movie that you are participating in.  Spiritual seekers and all self-help people, psychotherapists and coaches of all sort operate from the level of observation, mindfulness.  They have an understanding that to identify completely with the character in the movie makes their movie a drama, sometimes a horror.  And when the character hits the rock bottom and realizes he/she needs to change something, they gain the ability to be mindful.  At this stage they want to ease their suffering and become more aware of what’s going on.  

Coaches and therapists are especially good in this, they were trained in helping others to observe themselves.  Some therapists and coaches are very good in helping others to observe themselves, but in their own life they may be completely identified with the character and often not able to observe themselves.  This situation is very tricky for them to become aware, because they are playing the character that is trained in observation, they have an official paper given them by their professional Aggregate, they assumed a role of “the professional” in this field, and their mind will justify everything they are playing is being right.  In a way, they are hostages of their professional identity, they are completely identify with this new “upgraded” character with a diploma, with the syllables of their expertise after their name.  

But even completely identified coach/therapist can help others to ease suffering, because they act either from the algorithms they have learnt, or their intuition, and if they apply these natural and acquired skills to work with their clients, and teach them how to be aware of their thoughts and feeling, it works for the clients to become more mindful. 

This works to help people to look at themself. Now they are not completely identified with the suffering character, they are watching, observing it, making some adjustments to ease suffering.  It is like the actor on the stage sort of divided his attention and is able to watch himself while he is playing the role.  The awareness now resides outside the brain and watches. Or in the analogy of the theater we spoke about in Part 6, one become the watcher of the play on stage, or  watcher of the movie on a screen. 

Why all these writings and why they came out with the name “The Portal”?  As times intensify, the unconscious become more visible, the conscious become more accessible too.  We just ended Kali Yuga (in Hindu), or The Night of Svarog (in Slavic), it is a dawn now, the transition to another epoch.  Everything is available now, any kind of frequencies: from dense material, low psyche energies to the frequencies of purity, light and consciousness. These are the times of possibilities to wake up from this movie of your own character, wake up from complete identification , and wake up also from  identification with a watcher/the mindful one.  

What else human being is able to wake up to?  To their own Consciousness, the Soul. Not a concept of the Soul from the religious books, but the real experience.  I must say here that this is only possible for human beings with the Soul,  there are many people who look alike, but they have no Soul.  See, we either completely deny the Soul, or we assumed that everyone has one.  Its neither.  There are many different configurations of people on this planet.  Their bodies look similar, because this is the organic costume - we can call it avatar since the movie Avatar popularized this word - this very costume is able to carry life on this planet. There are people and there are human beings, its not the same, but we use it interchangeably, assuming we are all made from the rib of Adam, or whatever the story you are carrying about humanity.  I will not go into this subject deep right now, it will take another 2K of words.  I will just say here that it is fake history of the humanity, fake story from the fake source.  This is not our (human) history and not our source of information.  It’s for different people. Might be valid for them, not ours. 

Let’s talk about the Soul so you get it.  The Soul is not inside the body.  The Soul does not even reside here, it’s multidimensional, quantum thought of the Creator, a Higher Being of this Universe. Everything is fractal in the Creation.  And every little thing is a fractal in itself and a part of the bigger fractal. This Universe,  a collective Consciousness, is a part of the Higher Being, and that is included in the Consciousness of the Higher, and so on - it is unfathomable reality, so we will only talk about our Universe and I will be calling the Consciousness of this Universe a Creator, Almighty, because for us - it is. 

As a part of the bigger fractal, you are created in the similarity - you are a fractal of Consciousness - we call it Soul, Душа in Russian. This fractal of Consciousness - Soul - assumed the body on itself, but not contained in the body. This is why you, the real you, can never be hurt.  It’s not resides in the body. The character can be hurt, but you - not. 

In fact, the Soul you is the one who chooses the experiences for the character necessary to un-tie the quantum knots in itself.  They are created by lack of Love, assuming yourself being separate from the Creator when you enter the avatars.  Through these quantum mind movies we live in the reality where we presented by circumstances where we need to make decisions, and what we decide, or our brain decides based on all the condition, either ties up more knots or un-do them.  Your thoughts in this life matter.  Thoughts that run through the mind repeatedly become beliefs. Your actions in this life matter even more, because it’s manifested thoughts. They either free you or they create more chaos that needs to be cleared, maybe not in this life and not in this character.  

Being awake is realizing who you are besides this body, this avatar.  Being awake is to be aware that you are a Free Observer of this reality, not a character in this reality. Being awake is seeing the mechanism of “the cinematography” how Consciousness take on the character, become an actor, and the mind assumes different roles. From that knowing you can direct your own movie.  And the first wish on this planet at this time is money, because this System is based on greed and power, and money is a mechanism to enslave people into the System. 

When you become conscious and might start to exercise that creative quality of you, it will start to exercise in you naturally, and you become a  director of your own movie.  You will be tempted with creating experiences for yourself where you have money.  If you are truly awake, you are not wishing for more money, but you are wishing for the experiences that you need to un-tie the quantum tangles in you.  They might include money, might not, and to tell you the truth, the latter is more common, because the prior lead to the laziness of the Soul and all kinds of mind trips, solidifying the identification.  Though the advanced awaken Soul might choose the experience of money to be a vehicle of un-tying the attachments and identifications.  

If the money trip is walked fully consciously, without conditioning you, without enslaving your mind, it is possible to have a scenario of a character with money.  You train yourself, you dive in the money scenario, as soon as you are given, you exit the money Aggregate, you use the money in a wise way, this way you to continue to evolve. 

The aim of life of someone who is conscious is to fulfill their mission.  When you evolve your mission become obvious to you.  It is an aim with which the Soul entered this life.  The scenario becomes visible to you, all the experiences in the past - valid and even logical.  The future become also clear and therefore you are aware what’s needed from the present for that future.  In this Time/Space reality here on Earth, the Future is making choices in the Present to be manifested.  You are the one to choose the future and the present, to manifest Free Will.  Only conscious man can have Free Will, and his will is steeped in his aim: to evolve as a Soul, as Quantum Consciousness, to assist evolvement of the Whole. All other common ideas to have a will, to make decisions, without being conscious is just automatic, unconscious execution of karma and its consequences. 

You choose to work your way through one part of the System or another, though total involvement or partial, through this Aggregate or that, this is a School.  Everything here on Earth is aimed to train your awareness by taking you out of yourself, to hypnotize you into the matrix illusions, to disempower you from your creative nature, to brainwash you into the values that not yours, to destroy your will, and the most strongest weapons of the matrix are money, sex and power. If you are an advanced Soul here, you probably working through one or a combination of these algorithms.  You thought those who sit in nirvana in the Himalayas are advanced Souls?  They might be, but the once that are working consciously though the veils of the matrix, right on a battlefield, through the mines of money and power, keeping their Souls clean, might very well be very advanced Souls. Their scenario is to be right in the mix of it all, but their aim is not money оr power, their aim is to use these dense experiences to remain conscious and evolve. 

See how different the aim can be?  All the self-help and coaching aim to fix the character, most of the spiritual disciplines aim to achieve some states, like nirvana.  Real spirituality of a human being is to find their aim, the seed with which they entered into this life, and complete it, if possible.  There is a lot of obstacles here to complete it, the reality on this planet is virtual reality, and everything in it coded so you can get lost completely to who you are and why you are here.  The mind conditioning (aka brainwash) from the times you entered here is of unprecedented degree and the levels of awareness are very tough to pass.  But possible.  And now possibilities are at their max, thus, the name of these series is “The Portal”.  Look at these texts. Would these texts be possible before?  Well, unless I would love to join people in the psychic ward, then no.  But now is these times of the open hand.  Everyone opened their cards.  If you want to know something, you will find it.  And if you are sincere, you will be helped. 

Let me tell you this.  You don’t have to wake up.  It’s not necessary.  You just need to be sincere and kind-hearted.  You already participating in the awakening of the humanity and helping to restore the balance on this planet.  The only problem here is when one is very kind and loving, but identified, he might not withstand the pressure, he might cave in.  Anyone can be pressurized to the point of submission, just different amount of pressure needed to be applied.  Even the most sincere will cave in because of the fear of death, or a fear for wellbeing of their children.  They will be presented by the System with a choice to conform to this or that, and they will choose to conform, because of fear.  What awakening does is eliminating the fear of this avatar to die.  The costume will be left here, it belongs to the Earth. The Soul just changing dimension.  Death in Russian is с-мерть - смена мерности - changing dimension. 

Awakening is also helps with taking of yourself the responsibility for the wellbeing of the children, because you know they entered this place just like you, and they are your children only that they came out through your avatar.  By Consciousness they might be completely different beings, they have chosen you and your partner only because that setup you provided allowed them to come here and be presented by the circumstances and conditioning needed for them to be able to un-tie their own quantum tangle.  The scenario where they are your child matched what they need, matched their aim for this lifetime.  And your own aim matched the conditioning filed your parents provided. 

Understanding this takes of the weight of the guilt that we could be better parents and we could give more to our children.  It ease the anger many of us feel toward our parents that they could be better parents for us. The Soul entering the fetus aware of the setup of the scenario, it actually needs exactly this scenario for its evolvement.  If you would be able to provide a different scenario, a different Soul would enter.  There are no mistakes.  Understanding this can give you a serious relief, and the freed energy from the constant underlying guilt will be immediately utilized in the life-affirming way.  One more tangle will be resolved.  

These quantum tangles are connected with each other in the quantum interlacement of all the Souls, and every knot in every individual Soul freed, changes the Whole.  This is how Creator - G O D - Universal Consciousness - evolves, and directly connected to every human being, everywhere at any time, in all the dimensions at once.  Like you are aware of your thoughts, the Creator aware of you.  You are a quantum thought of the Creator.  Your whole being in this life is one thought of the Almighty.  Imagine that. If the thought enters your mind is beautiful, insightful, life affirming, you notice and admire this thought.  If you live your life in a life affirming, creative way, you help others to untangle, the awareness of the Creator is right there, admiring his thought - you!  You feel beautiful, divine connection, you feel the Presence, you feel you are held, supported, you feel you are not alone.  

No one human being is alone, it is impossible.  We all interconnected.  The “woke” crowd took this very truth and applied it to something that is not true.  I believe they have good intentions, but they are brainwashed, just like everybody else, but by different wash.  There are many different shampoos to wash the mind so it can run this or that idea.  “BeLaMe”, “Stand with This or That”, “Global Shmorming”, “Rainbow Wash”- these are current new shampoos. When one doesn’t work, the System introduce a different one, the newest one, instead of “Global Shmorming” is “Climax Change”, for example.  And you all know many others like “School Brainwash Camps”, “United States Co.” and “Our Lord, The Shepard” - for super hold…. And they are countless to name, basically every concept of life on this planet is a brainwash. 

In my writings I interchangeably use words, most of the labels I interchangeably use, just like Matrix, System…juggling with them freely so we do not form any static label, because we want our mind to be open to the meaning beyond the labeling, and everybody has their own intimate experience with that I am describing.  We can call it Pressure cooker, a Washing machine, a Flying saucer, whatever the name, the meaning will be the same - there is an artificial gridlock of algorithms put in place on this planet, and perhaps, this Universe, where we, as we enter, loose the ability to remember ourselves, and through life not given any chance to recall.  In this gridlock we use mostly our mind, not our Consciousness.  Unless something strongly shakes us, we are asleep to the reality of Consciousness and take artificial reality of a thinking mind as real. 

The previous Part came out mostly for people very much identified with their mind, who are watching the Tell-a-vision box and suffering because they can’t process fully all the chaos in the world through their mind,  it is impossible.  I tried to give them a solution, hopefully a few of those took their TV to the dumpster.  This Part is not for everyone, not for identified, you know, if you were able to read and understand what was written, you are a very advance being. This planet is a school for the Soul, a very tough and dense environment where we can work hard to wake ourselves from the identification with the earthy character, and help un-tie the quantum tangles in ourselves.  If you had enough inner work and more light comes in through you to this plane, you might be at the end of your earthy journey. 
This Part was for you. 

Links to previous posts:

The Portal Part 1 The Portal. Part 2 The Portal. Part 3 The Portal. Part 4 The Portal. Part 5 The Portal. Part 6 The Portal. Part 7  The Portal. Part 8 I have to mention here my book "Buddha on a Bull", because I kept approached by people who have no idea I wrote a book, please read, you will find it entertaining. More about it here: In English: https://www.elenanezhinsky.com/buddha-on-a-bull In Russian: https://www.elenanezhinsky.com/buddha-on-a-bull-in-russian

🔥The PORTAL. Part 8🔥 For Distressed by World Events , a Real Solution

Yesterday I came across a post of someone who asked about a bomb shelters in the houses, I don’t remember exactly how she phrased it, but from the message and some dialogue with people that was already there, I sensed she was very distressed.  I said that in Russia we had bomb shelters and I asked her what’s happening, why she is so distressed.  She became even more distressed because I asked her what’s going on: “You don’t know what’s going on?!!”  I realized she is one of these people who are loosing their marbles right now because world got really crazy and there is no explanation to this to people who really don’t know what’s going on.  I invited her to come to read The Portal, but she said she is busy for that.

 So I decided to write her this very part, maybe she can re-frame her involvement with news, because if she won’t be able, this will not finish well, you know, the world events will intensify and get even more crazy, what she going to do then?  And so many other innocent people who just purely have no clue what is going on really, and they probably will never know, their mind will do anything possible not to know. Too far off.  So for her and many others I am going to say some things that they might or might not be able to take, that’s would be completely up to their mind.  If the thinking mind is stronger than Consciousness, then I can’t shake that with my writings.  

The dominance in the use of the mind happens in most of the population just because this algorithm of using the mind installed in us since very early in childhood by parents and then in school, and in our parents that algorithm was installed too by their parents and schooling, this has been going for sometimes, for long times.  For the last 2000 years we are not here to be born to question why this or that, we are here to accept things as we are told. Especially the last 300 something.  We lost the connection with the real: we do not see and know with quantum properties of the Consciousness, we are not moved by Spirit, and we roll eyes if anyone mentions the Soul.  The only what we know well is our mind.  Hmm, we think we know our mind, but how many people when they start to meditate, surprised that thoughts are really not theirs, that you can observe them and not follow them, just for the starters.  So we basically know nothing much about ourselves besides reacting to the stimulus. 

Imagine that, most of the people in the world are reacting.  How easy is to direct these people to spend their lives on whatever you want them to think about.  Create a war and you know: most of the population who has access to the news would think about the war and produce certain reactions: mostly fear and anger, disempowerment and depression.  Lots of milking for Babushka to do!  Day and night, because after reacting during the day, people won’t sleep at night, tossing and turning, and feeling the same emotions.  And even if they fall asleep, they drop into dreams where these emotions are also present as they are very strong and mind carries it through the night.  Milking is going on around the clock. 

I ask you please go read Part 5 of The Portal:
https://completehumanity.blogspot.com/2023/11/the-portal-part-5-stay-away-from.html,

I gave there the analogy I keep using - Babushka with the bucket and a stool that comes to the barn to milk the cow.  This analogy, though not perfect, describes how our strong emotions gets used as a feed to all kind of entities.  I don’t go into details, sometimes I skip details because I myself don’t know them, or I feel its not that important to know them, the process itself is important to know: there is this process of harvesting energy, psi-energy, chi, your life force, that gets discharged with experiencing strong emotions. 

Imagine the whole world distressed and emanates these emotions, creating almost an atmospheric conditions where we are trying to lead our daily lives.  It’s not easy now not to be affected, but it is possible.  For this very reason, as I said in my previous writing, you just ignore what you don’t see, you literary choose what to see.  Don’t listen to the news, lead your life as you know nothing.  For many people, believe it or not, it will be boring, they will not be able.  Why every family now has huge TV in every room?  Because they don’t want to think and feel.  They want to be fed news and react.  This is a big part of their life.  If you tell them to shut the TV off, they would be confused how to live, they don’t know how to live without news, from TV or computer.  People degraded to a state of a bot.  Especially in the cities.  

Cities were specifically developed to cut the human being from Nature, from natural resources, from its own resources, from intuition, from connection, from Spirt.  You don’t need any of these much if you work 9-5 in survival mode to pay for rent or mortgage and you watch zombi box at night.  If people understand that the modern conveniences are not convenient, but robbing them from real life, they would not agree for such a life, but people don’t think about these things, like I didn’t when I lived in NYC and worked in a corporation as System Analyst.  

The only difference in me, probably, that I never watched the news.  When there was a StockMarket crash in 1998, I had no idea, and I just lived my life: working at Time Inc, learning to ski, study yoga, reading Castaneda, taking care of my son.  When another one was in 2000^th (not sure when), I had no idea and was living even better times with my family: skiing, learning to play tennis, hiking, was inspired by teaching yoga, then meditation.  I know it is totally possible not to know what’s going on in the world, just like I had no idea what’s going on in the world when I was a child.  I am sure there were some wars and people were dying, and still, I was running around in the fields, living my own life to the fullest! 

Of cause, if the war is next to you, this is a different story, then you need to play a different ball game, you have no choice, but to fight with all your conviction, with all the fire, for your Homeland.  And if you are not on a battlefield, it is possible to lead your daily life and not regurgitate the hate stories that make you only disempowered.  How do I know?  

I have a relative in Ukraine.  She lives not right in a war zone, but she is right there, where everyone around is completely engrossed in playing the hate game with Russians, but she does not engage.  She does not talk about the war, she is focused on her garden, her flower beds, cats, her grandson, and her work with students.  She actually not only teaches them English, but teaches them to take responsibility for their thinking and their choices and decisions.  When there bombing was happening on the other side of the river where they live, she quickly closed the windows, her husband comforted the dogs and did whatever else needed, and they continued to live their life.  When the military plane was flying too low over their house, she ran outside and showed him with the feast to get out.  Imagine the sight of the woman on a ground shaking her hand with a feast on you.  Like a Universal Mother, without a trace of fear. You will comply. And the pilot did.  

You live what you want to live. But if you run fear through your system you live what you’ve got the script for - that role you are assigned.  The Quantum Consciousness you are for the fear of safety of this avatar - the body, voluntarily squishing itself into the role of the afraid and angry character. This is the problem right now on this Earth.  Not the environment, though it is very tough, but that we do not have right emanations - from our Consciousness, its dormant and kept in a captivity by the mind.  Mind is directed by the Matrix’s algorithms.  We became bots even though we are not.  

What to do?  Unplug yourself before the avatar will be unplugged.  Start with taking your TV to the dumpster.  Don’t give it to your friend, it’s like giving the drugs to them, just bring it to the dumpster.  Clean up your phone and computer from all the news apps and channels.  Clean up your social media - your Feed - from all the messages that evoke strong emotions in you.  Your Feed in social media is algorithmic: the more you watch certain topics, the more you will get just that.  There is no news in my Feed, there is no people posting about war or any kind of stuff like that. 

Take very seriously what you are given to read and take in, clean up your FB, Instagram and whatever you are using daily.  With time the algorithm adjust your Feed, which is literary what it means - a feed!  Be a connoisseur, don’t consume all you are given, leave on your plate only that which makes you feel inspired to go live life in the fullest capacity.  Then you can be helpful to others around you, otherwise they are in distress, you are in distress, and it creates a whirlpool that hard to get out from, because you stuck in that momentum of exchanging these emotions.  Choose to participate in life-giving and life-affirming exchanges, if every one of us would do just that, it would change the frequency on the planet and Matrix won't have a chance, but adjust it's algorithms. 

What if we directly, at least partially, responsible for whatever is going on on our planet by blindly following the FEED? Think about it, we have lots of humans living on this planet to make a difference, we can do it, one by one. 

Links to previous posts:

The Portal Part 1 The Portal. Part 2 The Portal. Part 3 The Portal. Part 4 The Portal. Part 5 The Portal. Part 6

The Portal. Part 7 

🔥The PORTAL. Part 7🔥 The Innocence We Are

Someone we know knocked on a door yesterday.  He was in a dirty baggy work clothes.  He is in the middle of his teeth gets done, so some of front teeth were pulled out.  He had a cigaret in his mouth.  I tell you, he didn’t look good.  He is re-inventing himself after coming back from prison for selling drugs. 

He lost his father early and that trauma has been driving his life.  We all, who has been on a path of self-discovery for sometime, know how this works.  Even we, knowing the importance of it,  avoid this work as long as possible.  We try to compensate for this inner work with everything we can: being busy, professions, spirituality, religion, becoming important, rich, making more babies, or etc.  

There are even more people around who have no idea that what they live now is directly created by what happened to them long ago.  They have no insight, and they will never be healed from what happened in early years, it is what it is.  Many, though look adults, still 5 years olds.  The world is full of hurt children that look like an adult.  Remember that next time you are dealing with people.  You might be 5 y.o talking to another 5 y.o, trying them to understand something, how you want it to be, and they are unable to hear.  And you too.

The best book to heal yourself from anything that clicked in you into a pattern that drives your life is this book called “Healing Developmental Trauma: How Early Trauma Affects Self-Regulation, Self-Image, and the capacity for Relationship”.

This book is a self-healing medium that will save you years of psychotherapy and tons of money IF you take it seriously, study it honestly, not lie to yourself that you don’t have this or that pattern.  I suggest even to assume you have all the patterns that is described in the book and work to understand what could be a cause of it.  When you see in this book all the patterns and all the possible causes and how they relate, you can look at them in yourself from the bigger perspective, from the one that watches the story - with a reasoning mind and compassion to yourself, and then later - from joy of being alive and having all these incredible experinces that gave you a possibility to evolve, to un-tie another quantum knot in yourself and the Whole.  Use pen and paper and really go deep in yourself, knowing that this is your main and most important work here.  

Back to the guy who knocked on the door.  I remembered that I just bought very good apples from the local farm, very fragrant and juicy.  I took an apple, went outside.  I looked, smiled to him, held out the apple and said: “Its better then a cigaret, take it”  He smiled back and took the apple.  At that moment I saw his 5 y.o boy, with a beautiful smile, without any traces of hardships of life.  There it was, still there: that innocence of a child, not squished by life yet.  Our exchange was so pure that I kept seeing the spark in his eyes long after he left.

What will carry us through these hard times of the reset of all the systems on  Earth is our Innocence.  That purity, light, childlike joy when someone handed you a red juicy apple. 

You have to do everything possible to safeguard it in you.  When you sign contracts with the System, check with yourself, what will be your payment.  Make sure that you are not paying by making your heart hardened and loosing your Innocence.  

I don’t know what circumstances you will be in, what choices you will have, and what decisions you will have to make, but be very careful in signing any contracts with anyone or anything not to sell out your Innocence.  Without that alive pure spark in you, you are done.   

The current System has elaborate methods how to squish the spark, it prays on human greed, fear, envy, guilt and shame, addictions and desires.  Your own Conscience will be that feeble voice you need to hear.  Your Awareness will allow it to hear that voice.  Know you always have a choice, even when you think you don’t.  There is always a choice, a few choices.  And you can always say NO.  Why? 

Because we don’t need to fear anything here, even death.  There are all kind of people dwelling on this planet, I can’t say on everybody's regard, but we, as human beings, are immortal.  That’s exactly the elixir that so many alchemists were trying to develop, because some creatures wants to be immortal.  Well, we already are, no need to fuss about the elixirs, just wake up to who you are to know.  Even if you won’t wake up this lifetime, no worries.  The Consciousness we are is not bound to this body, it inhabits it until it’s time to go.  If it didn’t work out this time in some way or another, that’s not a big deal.  Leaving this plane with your Light and Innocence intact - is.  

One time you just don’t allow yourself to go into something not really clean, you just stop yourself from doing it, against the greed or envy pushing you into it, or you do this very simple pure human deed, from the depth of the heart, in spite of fear or anger holding you from it, it is a big deal. And maybe all your life was lived for this very moment of exercising your free will to do this, and it frees your Soul to fly.  It doesn’t have to be something heroic, it can be a small deed, through which we rase above our usual responses.  Little things like that are actually heroic moments at these times.  

Keep your Innocence, the spark from the depth of your Being,  guard yourself from the media brainwash, don’t spend your energy on emotions and feed the Babushka (see Part 5), create a circle of people on the same page so you can be free in your expression and actions with them, take good care of your body, spend time in Nature, don’t rely on the System in the areas where you can take responsibility yourself.  Just keep living your life in the most inspired state of mind you have an access to, each day. If you do, you would hardly notice this Reset, life as usual, with its ups and downs, but overall - magnificent experience! 

Links to previous posts:

The Portal Part 1 The Portal. Part 2 The Portal. Part 3 The Portal. Part 4 The Portal. Part 5 The Portal. Part 6

The Portal. Part 7 

🔥The PORTAL. Part 6🔥 Are You Directing your Life or you are Directed? Emotion vs Feeling

I hope by this time- by Part 6 - of The Portal, some of you are really inspired that there is a different way to approach life, even in the world full of intense events, wars, disasters and uncontrollable circumstances.  At the same time there are those who still don’t understand how it is possible not to feel sad and angry when there are deaths of innocent people happening all over this planet, but somehow you stick with me, and keep reading, and for you I am keep writing.  So stay with me, ok.  I am really trying my best for you here, trying from different angles, and if one of you, with the heart full of pain, will be able to understand and release the pain, then I am successful. 

And if any of you read this one to the end,
and something clicks in you,
and you aline with who you are,
and transformation kicks in,
then I have done well what I live for.  

Let's go! 

Most of you, my friends on Facebook, you are people who arе living the spiritual life, who think and ponder, analyze, some of you follow some kind of practice or discipline.  

By this time on Earth there is no established spiritual movement that would not be altered, even a slightly, so following blindly, you will never evolve and wake up fully.  It would be childish to think that if the planet is controlled, and human beings are following certain algorithms as soon as they are entering this plane by embedding the physical body, that spirituality is pure, potent and unaltered… And yes, we were trusting it to be such, and still, when the covedian times came, we were not able even to think clearly, some of us completely fallen into the fear, some into anger, most of us did something that we regret later, if we even a little came back to our senses.  So how that all spiritual life worked for you?  

I will try to explain what real spiritual is meant to develop in a human so you evaluate your path and decide if you want to continue it or you will make some adjustments. 

The goal of any spiritual path whatever road you choose to walk, discipline you engaged with, should be three components that you are learning and perfecting to different degrees: awareness, concentration, determination.  The most important is an awareness, but you can’t perfect it without the other two.  

You don’t have to do any kind of special disciplines to train concentration and determination, you can do it through living your everyday life, your commitments, profession, sports, and etc…but without the third component - Awareness - you will not evolve.  Here is I recommend a book “The Way of the Peaceful Warrior” by Dan Millman, it’s still one of the best stories about what I just wrote here.  He had determination and concentration perfected, like any good athlete, but no awareness.  There is also a movie made. 

To evolve you need all three so you can with time to be able to distinguish between different states of Consciousness human being can live in and actively choose in which state you want to live at the moment.

What are these states I am talking about?

First, the state of consciousness of the one that is very much engaged in life, like the character in the movie, with all his aspirations, the sensing, thinking, emotions. This is the sensual/emotional engagement in the body, your avatar

The second state of consciousness is to be the one who watches this movie, the one who sits in the theater and watches the story unfolding in front of their eyes.  The Watcher. Sometimes he/she is very much into the movie, emotionally involved in it, almost becoming that character in that movie.  Most of the times you are aware that you are watching the movie, that that character you are identifying sometimes with is not the real you, the one that sitting in the theater is you.  You are aware who you are most of the times, you are not blindly follow the script of the movie, you think and ponder, you analize. 

The third state of consciousness - you are not in the character in the movie of your life, you are not the more aware guy who is watching the movie as it goes, you are the Observer of the two, the Consciousness itself that is aware.  It aware of you engaged in life, it aware of you being aware, and it’s just rests in the state equanimity with what is going on in the movie, in the theater, it just observes. 

What this gives us in terms of possibilities of a human being?  It gives us the possibilities of being a director of our own movie in this life, if only we can raise in awareness to the level of the Observer.

This is the level I am aiming to raise your awareness to with my writings.  This is the lever of awareness necessary to live in life at these times and not be emotionally taken by the momentum of emotions of billions of people, and be happily milked by Babushka
(read: Part 5 on this). 

If you are not in that state of consciousness, then know that what’s is going on with you, is directed by someone else.  Only in the expanded state of consciousness, the bird-view on yourself and life, you are your own director.  Even a second of awareness from that state of consciousness and some decisions born  in that state, changes the course of your life.  Any prayer, intention, wish from the level of the avatar is an illusion that keeps you wishing, keeps you identified without much real changes.  One second of understanding what you as a charachter need from the perspective of the Observer, will change your life  in the direction of that need.  From inner knowing of whats needed, life will arrange around you a different environment where that need will be fulfilled.  

Now, think about it.  When you wish for a car, or anything of this sort, in what position you are dwelling?  Probably in the first. You just experience emotion to want a car: for example, jealousy, or pity, or greed. If you are in the second position, you might reason that you need a car, because it will ease your life, make it more efficient. In the third position, from the Observer, you will wish for yourself to have an experience that you didn’t live yet, to learn something new while you are here, something that will help you to fulfill the purpose of this life.  It’s the state of consciousness that has no preferences for the character, only an aim to walk this earth journey in a way you can evolve the most.  

At the same time, here, right here, is very sensitive point.  If you as Observer dwelling in equanimity has no definite aim for your character  (example would be Buddhism), then you are living your character aimless.  You live the life of a Buddhist that concerns only with neutrality, middle way, doesn’t want to have preferences, no attachments.  This is very much supported by this path.  Almost as a balancing body of humanity to the other part of humanity that is completely engrossed into material aims.  And I have a feeling that Buddhism and similar are holding the balance of this sort on the planet.  As a Buddhist you participate in holding the balance on the planet, you do not carry your individual mission, you are a member, a part of the the egregor (in Russian) - the specific aggregate.  That Aggregate is the director of your life as a Buddhist character.  You are not a director of your movie.  You are living mostly in the second state of consciousness: aware human, the Watcher in the theater of your life. 

Any Buddhist that raised their awareness to the level of Observer, quit being a Buddhist. They might continue to play this character outerly, but they know they are not it. They can direct their life without all the dogmas, they can choose to stay in Buddhism, modify their engagements with fellow Buddhists so they can wake up too, or they can choose to exit.  Buddhist aggregate is actually not that bad, it only wants your Time, lots of time. And this aggregate asks to follow the middle way, concur your worldy desires, to keep that balance to the financial aggregate where the desires are extremely supported.  Financial aggregate is the main aggregate on this planet at these times, and all other aggregates position themselves either to prepare humans to enter it without questioning it and give all their energy and time or to balance it so the world will not collapse.  

All the religion aggregates are assisting the Financial aggregate, and more powerful then balancing aggregate like Buddhism, though recently Buddhism changed his status, if you remember Dalai Lama asking a boy to suck his tong - the ritual that shown us, those who can see and read the matrix, who is who and whats really going on. 

So if Buddhism slovely but surely take your precious time on Earth, Religion aggregates wants to capture your Soul, yes, its that literary graphic.  They want to milk you in this life, and when you die, to direct your soul to certain realms where you continue to be under their jurisdiction.  They reason it that they will keep you safe from falling into the hell realms. And so some people choose this aggregate, mostly unconsciously.  Some exit on their own Will,  but, depends on their engagements in this agregate, it can be difficult.  Orthodox Christianity make it very difficult. I won’t describe the hardships and misfortunes that happen with people who decide to exit, but believe me, its can be like the horror movie, completely crazy.  This is a very big conversation, and I tell you this, I wrote about it the whole chapter in my new book, in Russian, but it will be translated next year when I am done and start publishing. 

So by these few examples I have shown you that if you are not a director of your life, you are directed,  your script is written by and directed by Egregors. And I am telling you that human being that you are and who is able to read this text to this point has a real possibility to write, direct and execute his own life, the life of his avatar, to grow in Spirit and evolving as a Soul - the quantum consciousness we are.  It is possible, but not easy.  The more of us know this, who we are, how to evolve, and we connect on that level, just knowing there are others doing this deep inner work, the more we will be able to free our consciousness from limitations, evolve and help the Whole to evolve. 

I have to come back to the world events, the necessity and possibility not to engage in them emotionally not to loose yourself in the chaos of this Reset. 

As one of the guys said when he read Part 1 that I, probably, paranoid, and the reset is not what I present, but of financial system.  I did address this one just now. If you know how the System on this planet operate, at least in general, you will understand that reset of financial system means reset of all the systems that are under the main one, and how you make reset in something that is so multidimensional?  As I mentioned before, either you flood the planet and start again from scratch, or you start to implement processes that will deeply affect different areas of life.  One of the main aims of these writings is to paint a picture for you so you get more clear whats going on and have no desire to engage in processes of reset, if you can avoid it.  And the best way to do that is to evolve, to wake up to who you are, understand the conditions present where you are, discover in your individual process what you are here for and live it.  By living it you will help others, directly, or indirectly, to evolve too. 

Remember when the Ukraine war started?  How everyone got involved in that particular Reset's process?  It was such a big hit from the wave of emotions of most of the world population, that not many escaped it.  I was taken, surely. But what I felt at that time was very big, not just a hysteria of sympathetic nervous system, not fight or flight reaction.  I was distant from my birth place Ukraine and its culture for long time, and suddenly it was all activated, all at once. My blood awoke, the specific pattern of my blood woke up, and all that I need to know and remember, and what was possible for me to access,  flooded into my consciousness. I wrote this poem:

My homeland is Russia and Ukraine,

I can’t separate them in me. 

Yesterday in my bed falling asleep, I felt all the Pain.  

I saw if you are not on one side or the other, 

you have to be able to hold ALL the pain 

arising out of this conflict. 

This pain is not painful, it's detonates you.

It's a deepest Love and Compassion that ascends,

and you weep without tears.

Then you stare at the ceiling, 

unable to change a thing.

We grew up on a land that remembers WW2, 

we ate food grown on this blood rich soil.  

We have this cellular memory of war, 

when its activated, it is already a real experience,

wherever you are on this planet right now.

I am talking to you, Katzapi and Hohli.

Yes, all the rage and terror is real, 

but those who can transmute it in themselves - 

this is the culmination of all your spiritual practices - 

to be able to hold the deepest feeling 

in the transparency of awareness, 

and therefore experience compassion and love 

to the degree when even this deep conflict 

disappears.

Love remains. 

At least for a moment.

And you share that moment, that love, with the world 

in a silence of your own being.

You dissolve in Love. 

World needs this.  

Every human heart experiencing Love counts 

I experienced a lot of pressure from people who wanted me to be against Russians, wish that "Russians will become a compost for Ukrainian soil". For a moment I was feeling my orientation, leaning to this side and that side, and couldn’t hold either. To hold the view of either side, I had to be in the state of consciousness that is very much engaged in what’s going on, be in the middle of that war, trying to save myself from the bombs, or be in the army.  When you are in the middle of the physical danger, you are engaged in the body, your sympathetic nerves system takes the lead to save this avatar from being destroyed.  This is why I wrote before in one of the Parts of this series of writings: “You gotta do what you gotta do”, and when the time comes, you just do it.  But for everybody else, who is not in the middle of the event, we gotta do here what we gotta do:  and we continue our lives, our own existence in these avatars, and do what we came here to do : to evolve.  In what way, only you can discover it for yourself.  It might be from the place of the expanded consciousness you will direct the life of your character to live a life of someone who helps people in Ukraine and organizes the monetary help, or even go and join the army, or you direct your life to disengage from these events completely.  You are the one who can decide to do this or that, engage or don’t.  If you don’t decide, then it will be decided for you by the Aggregates, for example - Media.  You will be watching these events and feeling confused, discouraged, scary or angry, and, you know what happens next -  (read: Part 5 on this) Babushka is coming with her stool to sit by your side!  Whom you are helping? 

If you are in the state of consciousness of living life as an avatar, a character in the movie, then you are full of emotions, because you are so in, you got in so deep into the character, like a very good actor, you loose the perspective where is you and where is who you think you are.  But this is reserved for the people in the middle of the war zone, where their sympathetic nervous system is fully engaged. Or it's reserved for the people who are not able to raise their consciousness now, there is a lot of young souls who just working through lifetimes to this very possibility we, reading these writings, have already.  If you have the awareness of the possibilities of the human being and are actively aiming to evolve through this lifetime, and in times of crisis you are identifying with all the suffering around the world,  you are not serving or helping anyone, no one, but Babushka. 

You need to stop it.  Do what you came here to do.  Discover what you came here for.  As soon as you step out of the power of the aggregates, even for a little while, you will start to see your real aim here, or your mission, your purpose. Those glimpses will call in the necessary events and circumstances to aline you in that direction, you will start to notice your focus in life change, your values change.  If before you would engage in fear and anger emotions, sickening yourself and your body, in the expanded state of consciousness you will see all from the birds view, and will be able not to subject your avatar to the dangerous levels of stress, cortisol, havoc in the hormones and deterioration of your vehicle.  You will not experience emotions, but you start to be open to experience feelings.  

Emotions and feelings are different algorithms.  Emotion - energy in motion, it is very much in the physical realm, in the story you are character of.  Emotions are momentum in the world of the senses, they are evoked by sympathetic nervous system, a part of the avatar. Feelings are states of consciousness, they appear all at once, not dependent on the senses.  One either truly loves or not, experience compassion or not.  It can’t be more compassion or less, its just being aware of the state, these states does not belong to a human, to avatar, to thinking mind.  

These states exist and we have access to them by resonance. It’s either we are in senses and experience emotion or we are in the higher state of consciousness and experience feeling.  Feeling of Love is different from emotion of love.  Feeling of Love is constant, emotion of love depends on the reaction of the senses and evaluation of the thinking mind. By being in a state of true observation, you will not get heartless, you will become heart full, you will be in the position to actually help people, because everybody in their expanded state of consciousness emanates true feeling and performs right deed.  How these feelings and deeds actually express in your own life, you will discover for yourself.  And the world will be enriched by them, and people who will come across you, or those you direct your attention to, will be truly helped. 

Links to previous posts:

The Portal Part 1 The Portal. Part 2 The Portal. Part 3 The Portal. Part 4 The Portal. Part 5 Next: The Portal. Part 7