🔥The PORTAL. Part 12🔥 Don’t settle on Doll House Life

In the Part 11 I went into these mundane, earthy experiences that we all lived, and some of those were lived completely, and some, still linger unresolved and incomplete.  And I said that to resolve it is not to become best buddies again, but see the essence of that experience. To resolve is to incorporate that essence into yourself, recover that light that you left un-acknowledged in that experience, because of pain. 

You couldn’t see or resolve it  fully at the times. Now pain got less and you got wiser, and you can look at those experiences with different eyes.  As you gather this light more and more, you become whole.  Your field become stronger.  You don’t have much thought-food anymore to fuel the self-replicating story.  The story looses its grip on you. The more clearly you see the gift of the experience, the less important become a story.  In the light of your clear discernment any story looses the last hold, and mind give up feeding it to you. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you, that you were a part of my experience, you and your antics, and my antics together with yours, provided me with a lesson my soul had to go and learn and un-tie another quantum knot in itself, and by this happening, the whole universe shifted in its mosaic! 

Every one of us is important, every situation is important, every relationship is important, every our step, every decision, every our move is changing the Whole.  There are no ordinary moments.  Every moment is like a stitch in the canvas of life, life of the individual soul, and life of the Whole.  We are interconnected, like thoughts are interconnected in our head, souls are interconnected with each other.  We make a different move and we affect others, even without ever coming in direct contact.  

The Matrix and its inhabitants study us, they want to replicate us, they succeeded in many ways to replicate a lot, but they will never be able to replicate us completely. The soul is not replicatable, its unique quantum thought of the Creator, how you can replicate that!  They can slave us for a lifetime or even lifetimes, we forget who we are and why we are here, working 9 to 5 to buy a house, but as long as we say no to soul capturing contracts, we are fine.  I don’t think there are any here reading my texts who signed his soul into captivity, we are too small fish, we have no ambitions to raise to the top of the world, we have conscience, so no-one came to us with proposition of this degree.  But you never know.  I left Russia 36+ years ago, and after that some of the people I knew there raised to the top ranks, to the richest people, one even hit the Forbes list.  And when you start to break that ceiling in the Matrix’s levels, especially in the public administration sector, you get all kinds of attention from all kinds of angles. 

And these temptations for the soul doesn’t have to be dramatic like “selling your soul”.  These temptations are how they study us: what will work, what will have a push back.  I don’t want to go into the recent 2020 details, we all know what happened, oh, how much they studied us through these recent years!  They just watched and analyzed how much we will swallow without ever questioning, without doubting, how much is needed here and there for us to cave in, what phrases activate certain responses in us, what will evoke the most fear, and what is not enough in strength to hypnotize us.  My favorite was and still is, the most ridiculous thing ever I have heard: “the mask is a sign of love”!  Every time I think about it I laugh how good this one was!  It was brilliant! This was their win, their jackpot!  Naive, scared humans were ready to sell their mom to the concentration camp for that one.  Sounds harsh?  How about it was actually happening?  As sad as it is, we were conned. 

But we still kicking here, it’s not all done yet.  You will see in the next 6 years all kinds of Broadway theater plays that will be presented as real, as necessity, as saving the world, as the only way.  Do not fall for this, as soon as you believe it, you are that character on a stage, playing in their scenario.  Do not engage, live your life, and observe. 

Remember this is just a school, the immersive experience show, 3D world creating itself in the mind.  Come out from that narrow experience, expand into the Consciousness, expand through your Heart, get filled with Love, feel the strength of your Spirit, feel the connectedness of us all in the field beyond the constrains of the matrix, expand further then your thoughts, expand farther then your body, expand wider then your family, house, problems, children, expand more.  Then look at life from that expanded perspective.  Where all the people in your life, all the experiences, past, present, future, all are in you.  And you pour your love into all of it and decide what life you want to live, which situations you want to enter and which not.  You direct your own life here from that perspective. You graduated into Director of your movie. 

Before you were an actor who identified with his character that much that when the set finished, he went home and continued to play that character.  That would be classified as a psychological d/o, but in life that we live here its presented as “normal”. The actor that came home in the character he played in a theater will get scolded by his wife and one hit by the pan will get him out of the hypnosis (kiddin :) )  

Those who watch themselves go in and out of their own story in the head, they are partially or fully conscious. They looked at by majority as they are “insensitive”, “cold’, “crazy”, in Russian we have this saying:“не от мира сего”, not from this world.  Because they know that life is not that serious as it seems!!  They can't cry with you because they are not in pain, they are in wonder how this frikin simulation works!  And yes, sometimes they get deeper into the illusion, and then they can cry with you for your troubles. 

When you identified with the character in life it’s supported by the other characters, and you together create a set.  This set can’t be violated, you will have push back from all the characters in a set.  They already have the scenario in their heads: who is who, who plays what and what to expect , how to behave, what to say, and what to feel.  

Imagine you woke up at last, even started to suspect, and you start to behave and say things out of the script.  They want you to feel for them, but you don’t, because you see they just think that they are not, but they are fine, They accuse you of being cold, just because they don’t understand you, for them you are heartless, and because you undermine their story, you are like a thorn in their life, they can’t control you, they want you either to change, or they want you out.  This is the beginning of the conflict and probably, separation.  

There are two scenarios for this situation to unfold: you stay because they also start to see more, and you grow in this together, or you leave, because they unable to shift from their identification.  There are other scenarios too, like you stay and play the role with them that satisfy their view of reality, it allows peace in a relationship. I do that with my old friends, various people I meet briefly, if the situation requires it.  I just get to play in their movie as an extra, consciously. Sometime ago I would start consciously and end up in a set as a character.  This happened because I had an agenda to wake up someone, I cared so much, I would loose the perspective.  Then, when I would not succeed, it would disappoint me considerably, mostly because I saw how naive I was and how much time passed, years!  I don’t do it anymore, I let people live and gather their own experience without me trying to short cut their life. 

Most people are in their heads, lead by their thoughts and see themselves as the character in their set.  Remember the doll house?  What are the values of the dolls living in this doll house?  That they have this house, furniture, clothes, food, and someone actually playing with them, otherwise their life will be dull and just the same- laying on a couch in their doll house in a corner of a room.  When someone playing with them, they make them alive, they create different scenes for them, different scenarios, they entertain them. This is how most of the people live.  They don’t take any responsibility, they have no will, they just wait when someone decide for them what to live, what to think and how to behave.  What meaning of life these dolls have?  To be needed and loved.  People live their whole life for these: to be seen, acknowledged, needed, loved.  They will keep playing their roles in line with the scenario, because they lost a sight who they are and settled on doll house life. 

Scrolling through Facebook posts, or any media, is that activity - activity that does not require any effort, any responsibility, any decision to make, you only need to be in the head, that’s all it requires.  This is why I decided to write very long texts, only those who can make active decisions, apply considerable effort, can go through these texts, or those who train their mind by reading more then a few sentences before they loose interest.  Both of these categories of people have a chance to make it in one piece, because making it through the next 6 years will require serious discernment, automatic living and listening to the authorities won’t do it.  But listening to your own conscience will.  You gotta be very sensitive, alert and aware.  Then you can make right decisions and this will create your life.  It will be a good life, even while the world going through the mega changes, cataclysms, and full on Reset.

You will be fine. 

🔥The PORTAL. Part 11🔥 Seeing the Light in Every Experience

When I finished Part 10, I felt I am done, I felt completeness, felt celebration that I finished the series. It lasted about a day!  I started wondering if anything left, if anything else I need to write about?  Is it clear, does it lead to more clarity, more knowing, more insight.  I don’t need to write some complete works on how to, this is very individual journey, sometimes one phrase can ignite some dormant mechanism that will start to lead you in a right direction.  

I am not at all about some standardisized process I need to invent here for humanity, I just need to lay out some information that might activate your own inner wisdom rooted in the depth of our human DNAs. I actually love to go in without any agenda, just explore where the pen (or keyboard) will take me, it’s interesting.  I hope you too enjoyed this journey in Consciousness with me.  I promised long time ago to my readers that if you sign up for that journey, you won’t be disappointed :)  It took me a little longer then I thought it will, but here we go, riding again, after riding Buddha on a Bull with me 4 years ago.

And for those who never rode that one with me,  everywhere in the world you can order Buddha on a Bull, just use one of the Matrix’s biggest consumer hub - Amazon - and it will deliver to your doorstep :) Or use electronic book, but I like real books in hand, there is an energy there you can’t get from electronic books, but that’s how I like it.  

How I decided to start writing again, beyond Part 10 that perfectly ended the series, like I thought? 

I saw someone dear to me was writing about unexpressed feelings of hurt and anger, how unexpressed hurt turn into anger and how unexpressed anger lingers as hurt, and both become mechanism of self-protection.  These repressed emotions indeed are leaks in our energy system.  I realized that all my calls to wake up can be futile, because we are walking like we turned the drainage system on, where all the energy is leaking from our avatars, and we only have the reserves necessary for keeping the avatar alive to do some basic life in a System. We just can’t have enough energy for waking up from the illusionary states we dwell in and if we have a substantial leak of energy we can’t sustain higher states of awareness.  We need to find a way to address these unexpressed emotions, these dormant holes in our energy body.  We need to find a way to express the emotion, in one way or another, or to transmute it.

Sometimes it is easy.  Two people with hurt come together, they talk, they cry, they hug each other, they feel as their misunderstanding melts and the love become stronger.  Most of the times this is impossible.  People have different rhythms and one is ready, one is not, one can be never ready. 

We can write our heart out on a paper, we can express everything we never expressed to another, then again, we have a choice: send it or burn it.  It depends.  This is for you to decide.  I had to do it in different ways to release all the hurt and anger, and I am still working on a few: through the life I had a lot of not correct for me relationships, because I wasn’t in contact with myself.  I was lost to myself most of my life, just like many of us.  I wasn’t born as a balanced person in a harmonious family, and the more I tried to be it,  the more further from myself I went, gathering around myself all kind of people whom I connected to out of necessity to survive.  And they, from their side, were just like me, connecting with me from the same necessity.  

When those structures started to shift, the relationships started to crumble.  I had no idea how to manage that besides stepping out of the rapidly falling bricks.  It left me with unresolved feelings, unexpressed emotions, tremendous pain.  With time I was able to look at the remains, express what needed to be expressed and feel fully what needed to be felt.  This was very slow process, it took, in some cases, years.  This was my process, it is not necessary to carry this for many years, there are many techniques that help, but for me, exactly this process, was necessary.  It was a multifaceted process - just living what is there, in the way it was, without trying to hurry up anything in me.  I settled on a self-initiated alchemy in my body, like simmering something to evaporate slowly instead of boiling it. 

Everyone of you had or will have its own.  And sometimes it would take a moment, sometimes - a few years.  Depending what you are here for,  you will have your own process of repairing the holes. You are different, your setup in this life is different, your aim in life is different, you don’t have to do and be a certain way, you follow your own rhythm of healing.  Healing is not just resolving the emotional hurt, closing the leaks of energy, it is also expanding in Consciousness, growing in Awareness, deepening in Love, and therefore, maturing as a whole, complete human being - it is rather multidimensional process, and one part can be emphasized more then the other in a point in time, and they all go in parallel, because if they don’t, then we end up unbalanced, which is ok for sometime. Its important not to be stuck in one area for too long, otherwise there is a chance actually to become somewhat a lunatic, fairly dysfunctional and self absorbed. 

 For a while, especially if your mind was detonated by the descend of Consciousness all at once, if you have had a Revelatory experiences, this is inevitable.  We do become dysfunctional, especially if we wake up in the middle of the conformed character, we can’t control these kind of circumstances, but if we get stuck in this to the rest of the life, then it is unfortunate.  It can take long time, sometimes the full cycle of seven years or so, to sort out the fallen pieces. 

I have being around and I observed many people going through awakening, and maybe I am unaware or those whose process of maturation went quick and painless, most of those I observed - hundreds - had quite a journey.  Some are still in it, some still confused what happened to them and how to make it in one piece through these even more confusing times.  Some fell back into the illusion, it was safer and easier than waking up in the middle of the ruins of your own mind and start life from scratch.  I observed so many different people through this scrambling around their own mind debris, that I feel I have a right to speak not only from myself, but from others as well. 

Why I talk in my posts and here, about myself?  You don’t want to read another post or book written generally from the third person, as they are detached from what they write, it’s like it doesn’t pertain to them, they are beyond it.  This is the fad in spirituality that confusing and misleading.  People who write like that are not completely honest, but all the neo-advaita built on this foundation: there are many teachers who have a public face of serenity and a private face of a normal human being, but they can’t reconcile them, because people pay to see them, their livelihood depends on their face. 

When I wrote my book Buddha on a Bull, I had a publisher - nonduality press, who told me my book is too personal and I rather write from the perspective of Consciousness - in a cliche non dual lingo mambо-jumbo.  I decided to write my book from the perspective of a human being, just like my readers.  The publisher were in some kind of transition, they sold out to a bigger publishing house, and they suddenly stopped communicating.  I was waiting for long time to hear from them, when they came back they said that it will take them a lifetime to edit Buddha on a Bull to be right. I just took the book out, a few people helped me to edit it, it didn’t take a lifetime, only 3 months, and I released it. Its imperfect?  Sure, but it is already on a 4^th year helping seekers who need this information, and its already translated and published in Russia and on the 2^nd year there.  What’s more important? 

These blogposts, they also imperfect, they are not even edited, they posted as soon as I am done writing.  Otherwise I will keep it in my desk drawer or in the folder in the computer, and what the chances that I will have energy and money to hire someone to edit and release?  There are many people who wrote a book that is somewhere in their notebook or computer, and they never gave it a chance.  These people take their writings too seriously, and themselves too.  Sometimes it is appropriate, but sometimes its stays on a way of sharing with others.

Ok, back to the important.  Now, this will be very important what I will write here, please pay attention.  What happened with you before, in what point of a journey you are in, how much aware you are, how conscious you are, how deep you went with your inner journey, or not, this does not matter - you can start where you are.  

There is something that needs to be understood here.  In every situation, every past unresolved relationship, how bad it seemed to be, how unjust, there is always something that we can recognize as this essence of light, luminosity. You only can close these leaks of energy, if you see that light and recover it by affirming this light in yourself, in the other, in what happened.  The quantum knot that was created (karma) can be loosen and completely un-does itself, if you will see the light in it, and let it free. 

My stepfather was an alcoholic, it affected my life tremendously, and still, I can see light shining brightly through me, from his presence in my life.  He had conscience.  Alcohol took over his mind, but it didn’t take his soul.  He is as confused human being as it gets, still, when he  had to make important decisions in life, he did not sell out.  I saw that, and it very much affected me, it gave me perspective needed to walk this life with a certain values.  They were tested, and in small ways I cave in a few times, which teach me even more of what is important, what matters.  What matters is to remain human with the pure heart, and we will see how much this really going to matter in these next 6-7 years ahead.  So look at all your situations, all your relationships, now and in a past, and recover this light quality for yourself, free that light by seeing it and acknowledging it, it will make you more whole.  

You tell me, Elena, but I had some horrific things happen to me, where is that light of what you are talking about?  Yes, unfortunately, we are living not in a perfect environment, some things happened to us are really horrific, many of us didn’t make by this time in one piece, but many did, and what happened to them built their will to live. This planet is to provide humanity with all kind of levels of testing the strength of the Spirit.  This environment is a labyrinth, a quest, a school, and like everybody went to different schools, took different classes, had different teachers in their childhood, same - we all have different lives here, depending on what we need to learn.  

This planet is a testing ground, like in a computer game, within the same game there are different levels, still, in the most horrific battle in a computer game, there is this light: you didn’t really die, you just played that out in your mind and on a screen, but in reality - you are a Player of the game, not a character in the game.  Can you see that, thinking about your unresolved hurt?  

You were not able before, you were too identified.  But now you can.  

Can you see that in those circumstances was the most important to remain human?  

Can you see that you always can pass the test in humanity, always say no?

In the extreme situation, Human being just change the dimensions, just leave the avatar. But we will not talk about extremes here, most of us are not on a battlefield right now and not asked for the decision that might lead to change the dimension.  I am only mentioning it here for you to get more ok with this, because the biggest tool is used on Humanity is fear of death.  Which does not exist for us. It’s a hoax what they are trying to pull it here.  But they are succeeding in it, look how many were in lines to get the vac in fear of death!

If you can look at your unresolved relationships from the perspective of a school, we came together to help each other to learn, to evolve,  you saw your lesson, gathered insight from that story in your life, absorbed that light in yourself, you became more whole, you started to solve the Mystery of your existence, and contributed to the evolvement of the Humanity as a Whole. 

It doesn’t mean you agreed with what happen was right, or correct, it doesn’t mean you have to talk to those people, be friendly, or do anything to fix the circumstance,  it doesn’t mean you need to let go of any obligations, including financial, if they owe you, or you owe them, you simply saw the Mystery, and you, by seeing in a right light, quite in Wonder, recovered that light in yourself. It is an inner process, in a right way done it sort of like, if I can call it, utter forgiveness: forgiveness beyond forgiving, when you know that there is no-one to forgive. 

Sometime ago someone said to me: “I realized it’s impossible to forgive, it is easier for me to forget”.  Even for him, with all the training possible in meditation, was very hard to deal with the hurt.  Now you know how hard it is for a regular person to let go of the hurt.  Sometimes it is impossible, sometimes it takes many years.  Each of us need to live the experience to its completeness, whatever it takes.  It is possible to live the experience fully without any remaining unresolved ends.  And these times ask from us not to put it on a back burner, but deal with unresolved experiences now.  Like NOW.  The times are such that something that took 7 years to be resolved, takes 7 months, or 7 days, or 7 minutes, or a moment.  It depends, everyone will discover that for yourself, but get to work, friends, we need to clear these unresolved ends, we need as much energy as possible: physical, psychic, all the chi, life-force possible! Being Conscious requires energy, extra energy. 

What we discussed today is possible to do on your own. You don’t need, but you can utilize help: friend, therapist, coach, they can help to start you on this inner journey.  Tell them: “I have this unresolved relationship.  It bothers me, it keeps me thinking about it, it takes my time and energy.  Please help me to look at it from a different perspective”.  This will be a beginning,  a catalyst.  Real transformation happens when you are by yourself, there is no one there, and you take responsibility for your life completely, then you make a decision to grow up fully and love unconditionally.  

You may end up disliking that person anyways, that’s fine, you don’t need to like them.  Besides, there are wonky characters in this world, they are here to help us to grow up,  they don’t know what role they unconsciously playing, and you weren’t conscious too, what else you expect now, its a mess.  Just leave that be as it is. But YOU feel LOVE in your heart, at least at this moment, because you know this hide and seek game now, you feel love because you can’t feel anything else anymore. 

🔥The PORTAL. Part 10🔥 The Higher Meaning of Life. Service.

I never saw this series of writings coming, especially given that I was in the middle of writing a book, and I was so involved in the process of it, I almost disappeared to everything else.  Creation gave birth to another creation, and suddenly I felt the urge to share with my friends around the world, my fellow travelers in this life, and probably, not one life, the necessary information, maybe even more - higher meanings we can live with, the states of Consciousness we can dwell in, instead of following those offered for us by the Matrix. 

By writing these posts, I felt as something was creating itself, some sort of brotherhood, though I didn't even communicate with people, a few comments from the readers and short replies from my side, still I feel those who needed these texts, they read and some more will find them in a future. I wanted to tell you something very important.

Someone said this phrase that describes perfectly what I have been pondering about for long time, on a off, trying to understand the mechanism of something I observed for many years: "The light ones do not fly in a flock".  They are usually alone.  You will see big movements formed and huge crowds following with all kinds of missions, meanings, and aims, people like belonging and trust big names.  And there are those who are informed, awake, and alone, and maybe are able to talk to a few in their life, if even that.

It is very difficult to do the work alone, even our own inner work is not easy to do alone, but to do the work in the world, for the whole of Humanity, alone - is even more difficult, I would say, almost impossible.  It’s easy to be squished by the mechanisms of the System not to allow any light to come through.  There are all kinds of ways to keep those who can bring that spark, the Light of their Soul, invisible.  I don’t want to even go into these mechanisms, but some of them I felt and lived through myself, not knowing it at the times, but now I understand.  It is what it is, it only made me connect to the Spirit even stronger, clarify my aim, the values, and how I can navigate in the System without being stopped, or even destroyed.  

We have to be clever and use the mechanisms of the System, for that we need to know how it is all works here, and have a plan.  Usually people, even with the best intentions to carry in life, do not want to know outside of their beliefs, it’s ok if they live the life of a Merchant, and playing within matrix’s algorithms.  They didn’t come here to bust through the veil of the illusion, or, they forgot why they are here and took this game as real - in a full immersion mode.  The conditioning mechanisms of the matrix gave them the values and aims to live for, fear for the wellbeing of the body, solidified them as they are their own values.

Usually I sit and I write one piece to the end, be that a short post or 3K of words like Part 9.  This part was brewing in me in different phrases, I kept coming here and added a sentence or two at a time.  This Part is why I even went on this ride with you guys, writing like a madman, 10 Parts of The Portal!

I didn’t want you to freak out from the information I was laying out in these series, I didn’t want you to run for the hills and not care about people dying on the other part of the world, I didn’t want you to become heartless, careless lunatic. I didn’t want you to quit your job in the system and end up on the streets of the same system. I didn’t want you not take care of the body as this just a temporary costume. I didn’t want you to wonder if you have Soul or not. I didn’t want to send you into depression about the state of affairs in the world, nothing like that. But I wanted you to evolve and transform yourself, and then help here on this planet, because those who read through these long texts and comprehend them, are true humans, and are here to participate in Life-affirming processes, not just being another bot, a slave in a System. You might forgot who you are and why you are here, I wanted to remind you about it , remind you how powerful you are, and how you can do your work, ignite your heart and exercise your Intent with which you came here. 

While you are here, you had to know what’s going on here, what we are dealing with, and that it is important to change your views and find the Higher Values, your own, not those in you that are installed by the System.  And then you alone, or we together, can find a way we actually can live this Higher Meaning.

Would you like to die in regret and confusion why your life went this way, why you hid most of the time from what called you to live life in a fullness? Or you want to die, to drop this avatar, this body, when the time comes, in the satisfaction of your journey here, knowing you did all you could, you completed why you came here?  

The values that matrix gave us, look how temporary they are: a family, a house with a white picket fence, a car, a stable job and a retirement fund.  These values make any man with a Spirit to become a Merchant who cares only about procreating and making money for the family.  And now Matrix changed even the values of a family.  Its not a value anymore because the system doesn’t need more humans to work for a few elites, the system will introduce robots that are much more cheeper to upkeep, so it gave us the Rainbow value and confused everybody into that one.  It screwed up young’s people identities, it prepared us through many generations, so it is seems now like a natural thing.  This is how the conditioning work, it sets in after a few generations that went through the process of brainwash.

A house with white picket fence and couple of kids or a freedom to "have nothing, and be happy” (a new value given to us from Klaus, one of the spokesmen of the System), and whatever else Matrix want us to accept as a meaning of our life, this is not a meaning of life for most of you who read my writings, who followed me for years, seeing something in me that held you close.  Yes, these might be values for many, but for us they are not enough to end our journey here in completeness.  

This is why we do inner work, this deep excavation of any remaining density so the Spirit runs freely through us, and we are able to add to the light frequency on this planet.  And most of us does this work without any fanfares, we feel its our duty, we know its not even for us, this is something we need to do to be able to be of service here.  Sometimes we dive into the service prematurely and we get burnt by the ego that is still strong, we get lost in the Matrix’s labyrinths, but we keep the inner work alive, and like that redwood tree that survives the fire, we start to grow new branches that reach for the sun, one more time. 

Matrix’s algorithm presented as a universal value for the man: “birth a child, plant the tree” is moving into: “Its too many people, lets drop some, and the toilet paper is a valuable commodity”. This is why if you don’t have your own meaning, you will be given one in no time, and might only on deathbed you realize that what you lived for was a mistake.  

“There are no mistakes”, spiritual crowd will say.  Yes, it’s true, its lessons we came here to learn.  So learn yours quickly, because the gates are open to wake up now, and I don’t know for how long this opportunity to raise in Spirit and evolve your Soul will be here, I simply don’t know this, but I know that nothing stays permanently, it is in waves, the cycles.  I only know that right now the doors are wide open, you just need to make that serious decision and make a declaration.  

Very few can escape the conditioning machine, or be born in the family that supports the purity and light in a child without muddling it.  For everyone else - this journey is a descend to the deepest and darkest parts of ourselves and then ascend in the strength of our Spirit and the purity of our Soul, and helping others on the way. 

Bellow is an example of the declaration made by a man, a true human.  Everyone will make their own, but it’s important that you come to that decision and you say your word.  This one was said by the character in a book “How Steel was Tempered” written by Nikolai Ostrovskij.  We studied this in school, it made a very strong impression on me, and even though I lived unconscious almost all my life, I recalled it, every word:

“The most precious thing for a man is Life.

It is given to him once

and it should be lived in a way

that it would not be excruciatingly painful

for a deceitful and petty past.

Then, when you are dying, you can say:

All my strength and all my life were given to the most beautiful thing in the world:

the fight for the liberation of Humanity”

If you are the one who is awake and alone, please understand that there are many like you around the world, and we don't need to congregate together in a big open movement.  We just need to know there is a higher meaning of a human life and make our declaration to remain innocent, pure, and serve the light in this world. You will be heard through the Universe and connected.

I want to add a few words about the declaration.  Declaration of a human being is as powerful as it can be.  It is not saying a sentence, saying what you think you need to say.  It is not a wish expressed, it is an inner necessity you came to understand in yourself.  This necessity needs to be expressed, you can’t hold it in you anymore.  This necessity has a fire energy that burn itself out of you.  It is something you can’t hold in yourself, it’s not your mind creation, it is Consciousness talking.  

People pray and do affirmations, and have no idea how to make a statement, a declaration, so their prayers are answered and their affirmations work.  If you asking something or someone to help you, you can wait for the whole life.  If you make a statement from the depth of your being, you birth your word with purity of your intent, it will change the Universe.  

Here is a few words of warning.  The human being creates with his thought and manifest with his word, just like the Creator, the Universal Consciousness.  We are a fractal image of the Higher Being.  To create - is to take a responsibility for every word you are projecting out.  We are in an artificial grid of mental energy, the Matrix, if your word is true and powerful, if it saturated with all your might, your word will reverberate through this grid, and the grid might not like how it has to adjust, it will try to change your mind.  It can test your strength, your conviction, it can test your sincerity, the strength of your Spirit.

If you are not honest in your declaration, or your Spirit is not strong enough, you won’t be able to raise yourself to the necessary frequency, you will know it because your life circumstances will stay the same.  It’s like launching a rocket into the space, and if something in it fails, it will never reach the orbit.  But if your Spirit is Strong, the System, if your declaration about to change something in it, will try to interfere.  So before you affirm anything, be honest with yourself, if you have a necessary purity to affirm, it’s like a rocket fuel: not enough and your rocket will fail.  And surely be honest with yourself if you are ready to change the Universe, including the Matrix, because the responsibility for every word is on you. 

Ask for others, not for yourself.  Ask selflessly.  Make a statement about yourself, seriously, you are talking to the Universal Consciousness, you want to be heard, say it with all your being, not just words.  Let that Thought of the Creator - You - light up bright, Creator will hear his child. It will be a powerful creation that will change you forever, it will add to Universal Consciousness and evolve All.  You have that power in you, you came with it, even if it’s dormant.  Now, learn to use it for the benefit of our Earth and the whole Human race. 

You can go ahead and read other parts of the Portal, it is still unedited, keep that in mind and don't be hard on me :)  If anyone wants to edit it, that would be very helpful, then I might compile it into a free ebook "The Portal: How to Wake up and Live in the Matrix Without Loosing the Marbles". 

Links to previous posts:

The Portal Part 1 The Portal. Part 2 The Portal. Part 3 The Portal. Part 4 The Portal. Part 5 The Portal. Part 6 The Portal. Part 7  The Portal. Part 8 The Portal. Part 9

Here is more to read: My Book "Buddha on a Bull" is about spiritual awakening, an adventure through different spiritual modalities and disciplines. First part of the book is very entertaining and is for everyone. Second part is for advanced spiritual seekers to release the seeking. Both parts told through personal stories. In English: https://www.elenanezhinsky.com/buddha-on-a-bull In Russian: https://www.elenanezhinsky.com/buddha-on-a-bull-in-russian My Next Book "Walking on the Runes: Sincere Stories about My Life Inspired by the Energies of Runes" will come out in 2024. Its super interesting and the name talk for itself :) Before I submit it to the publisher in Russia (I might have the opportunity this time instead of self publishing), I will appreciate any help with editing in Russian (now) and in English for self-publishing (next year).